ok pple.. i'm back.. from my kuku chalet... ok.. let me begin with my my boring dictation of my chalet.. if ya free enough esp. now's the holidays. please, stay and read.. else.. shrugs*

Well... my chalet.. wasnt really kuku.. it was alrite.. but there was only like 3 girls.. out of 15 pple.. so.. DAY 1.. actually wanna go earlier to help the guys at the mart.. but.. summer last min.. apparently her friend is in some deep shit.. and she cant join us at the chalet.. i was like DAMN DAMN CRUSHED.. honestly, i was really disappointed tat my irritating duo cant be with me at the chalet and equals to 1/2 the fun.. damn sad...

anyway tat aside, and so i took off from my house to bedok mrt.. to find tat 2 of my friends are waiting for me at parkway parade.. so nice of them.. but, i alighted the bus too soon.. i alighted at the library.. hahah.. dumb and it was raining... like (-__-).. yeah.. finally took a cab down PP and the guys gt up and there we go, back to chalet at East coast..

damn, the AIBI advert tat is now showing is damn dumb.. plus the fisherman's friend want.. wat have it gt to do with the shirt popping open??

ok, back to the topic.. okie.. 3 girls.. tat means lesser the fun.. cuz the 2 other girls seldom talk.. arghh.. one is (ok i really really hope tat this doesnt get out and ard... PLEEASE..) ok.. one is squeaky... act cute.. omg.. i'm so dead if this leaks out.. okie.. then sometimes really bth.. i wonder why WN (initials are gd~~) like her?? hmmmm.... ook.. the other.. erm.. seldom talk to her.. ok... then as usual.. the guys are gamblin on top.. i was like wtf? come here gamble only?? wah liao.. 'damn fun neh..' ok.. then was bbq at nite.. AND THEN I REALISED... there are 3 types of bbq pple...

1- which is e most irritating one-- just do nothing and wait for food to be done and still ask for more..
2- which is like me-- just stay there bbq and nt eat much.. just bbq for other pple.. and yes (THEY R NT THANKFUL.. well exccept for a few... =D)
3- bbq and eat at the same time.. which is ok.. cuz u at least do something rite..

yeah.. sometimes like being under one roof with pple u can see the colors of tat person.. yeah.. after bbq watched tv.. till like 12.. cuz we waited for C to send I off.. ya hah.. then off we go for nite cycling. ALL THE WAY from the start of ECP to CHangi village... and WN gt lost cycling all the way to the front missing out 7-11 where we're supposed to stop for drink.. freak us out for a moment.. hahah.. and i tell u.. WAH LIAO Eh.. the Changi airport there the road ar... DAMNNNNNNNNN LoOooNNNGGGG ar... like nv nv ending lo.. hahah... but there was like 15 of us.. cycling on the road and all.. well... i didnt cycle fast fast.. and it was fun and enjoyable in a way.. cuz its relaxing and all.. but it wasnt the idea nite cycling.. yeah... i tot its supposed to be like everyone riding leisurely.. and chillin out on the bike and talking crap to each other.. but apparently,there was no one to talk to.. yeah.. i was quite behind until like almost reaching changi v tat time E caught up or i slowed down and yeah.. we talked.. it was kinda cool la.. hor winnie wasnt it?

ok.. then we reached CV FINALLY.. saw a few.. trannies.. (transexuals) yeah.. kinda cool.. some really quite chio leh.. hahaha.. had milo peng and prata kesong.. then we are off on our way back to chalet.. and yes, i was still at the back.. and along the airport road back.. really cannot see the backlights of the 11 pple in front as so.. wth.. cycle slowww lo.. then was left me and E.. we talked on our way back and he made some surprising findings bout me.. heh heh.. then its nice.. and then at tat moment.. i made some realisations bout myself... yeah.. then finally gt back to chalet.. everyone already damn shagged and didnt sleep till like 6 plus 7.. yeah then slept till like 10am.. then we went to return the bikes and went off to marine parade to makan.. initially.. i was pissed cuz i dun get to play bowling and i'll have to walk all the way to the bus stop u noe how far it is la.. under e hot sun.. then go hawker makan.. after makan go play pool.. like wa.. damn fun lo hor.. like super waste time lo.. really damn sad tat there;s nt enough girls.. have to follow e guys.. like hai~~ haha... then played till 3.. then gt FIRE drill.. haha.. have to walk 10 storeys down.. like (-__-) again.. hahah...

the rest of the details.. oh.. i rem.. i slept on the floor when i went back to chalet.. the guys went up to sleep.. the 4 pple play MAhJONG.. and i slept.. when i woke up.. went to the beach alone.. and hell.. no one cared where i went man.. if i was like missing for over hours then how? hahah.. when to the beach and caught the last few rays of tuesday.. and there i was , on the beach.. with e wind blowing onto my face.. i tried to think.. i trired to think of wat i wanna do for the hols.. wat i wan.. wat i need.. but.. nthing.. i cant think at tat moment.. all i wanna do is to relax n enjoy e moment to myself.. but i did realise something...

1-- i hate small talks.. really really sux at it.. n as i told E tat i wanna talk to pple whom i can talk to and inspire each other and encourage each other.. but rite at the beach.. i tot.. of wat E said.. he said tat tat's why its impt to make small talk to pple.. u will at least noe wat tat person is doing and then u wont feel so left out... and then i tot he was wrong but he wasnt.. he's rite.. President Ikeda once said tat if he only had 5 mins he would write a letter to encourage someone.. if he had 15 or 30 mins.. he would like to have diagloue with someone.. and then i tot i'm wrong.. i'm suppose to talk to someone anyone.. to encourage tat person and open up my life.. i must try to open up...

2- i really really draaggg going back to 4D.. really.. its the wrong thinking.. but yes.. i feel really left out.. i cant do small talks and its really a personal barrier.. everyone might think tat liling is this super friendly, cheerful person who can talk to anyone under the sky.. but no.. i think my cancerian traits are showing.. i used to think i'm a extrovert.. but i'm so wrong.. i think i'm a introvert.. if nt.. then i'm choosy.. i choose pple whom i can or cannot communicate with.. and yes.. i dunno wat i'm going to do when i leave SP.. when i leave SD.. i need my friends.. my commrades.. pple to fight along with me.. but i'm honestly, losing it.. i have been missing meetings.. and nt putting efforts into practise... i'm slowwly degrading.. this sucks.. i am nt worthy to become assistant district leader.. pls dun put me as one.. i'm nt ready, i'm nt up to it.. and i'm nt worthy of it.. pls pls.. i'm nt as gd as u pple tink i am... really..

And so i went back to chalet as it was dark already.. they gt ready for bbq too and then again, i helped in bbqing again.. i dunno leh.. maybe somehow deep inside i enjoy doing something for them.. like bbqing the food for them and seeing their sastified faces but.. where's my thank u? hahah.. i mean i;m nt tat particular bout it.. but.. tat shows how much pple cared and appreciated me.. apparently, nt much.. hahah..

the rest of the nite was spent by the guys playing bingo.. courtesy of me.. but i nv win.. haiz.. and them playing dice game.. loser drink and they were really crazy.. lotsa vomitting, shouting and unstable legs.. hahaha... cannot stand properly... after which, i went to the beach with jq,e and wn.. at ard 530am to sleep.. the sea breeze damn shoik ar!! slept till like 6 plus.. then went back cuz its going to rain.. then went back.. everyone like dead fish like tat.. and C gt a really serious hangover.. really relly.. v v jiat lat.. cannot stand.. keep vomitting.. eyes swollen.. aiyo.. just looking at him very pitiful ar.. have to have pple to support him then can walk.. then walk a few steps puke a few steps.. puked in the room, toilet, pathway, corridor.. like so much vomit to puke.. hahahah.. but v ke lian la he.. so took a cab back with a few of them... yeah.. after tat had breakfast at bedok and went home... haiz.... dunno to say whether its eventful or not.. bt i'm sure the guys had a great time.. well..till next time.. =\