Rhapsody

2007-04-06T23:46:00.000-07:00

ling's Existing Situation
Insecure. Seeks roots, stability, emotional security, and an environment providing greater ease and fewer problems, but is either unwilling or unable to exert the effort.

ling's Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered.

ling's Restrained Characteristics
The situation is preventing her from establishing herself, but she feels she must make the best of things as they are. Feels cut off and unhappy because of the difficulty in achieving the essential degree of cooperation and harmony which she desires.

ling's Desired Objective
Needs to feel identified with someone or something and wishes to win support by her charm and amiability. Sentimental and yearns for a romantic tenderness.

ling's Actual Problem
Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.

ling's Actual Problem #2
Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives.

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2006-09-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

4 things that i really really really really really really want to do...

* Dance

* Travel, chill and dive

* Read more books

* Strengthen my faith

I dun want to sound depressed cuz i noe alot of you care soo much for me.. honestly, i'm losing it..

2006-07-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

I'M NOT SLACKING ANYMORE.. Happy birthday blog~

Heya peeps! Good news! i got a job!! Yeah!! V happy! well.. its a job at Safra HQ.. as a projects and events facilitator.. I'm nt a government servant.. just working for a club tat is interlinked with the army.. so we do events like Runway Cycling, Singapore Bialathon and Army Half Marathon. And AHM is coming!! Anyone wanna join!? Join leh join leh.. gt exciting programs lined up for all..

Anyway, it's something tat i really wanted to do and try.. Yesterday was my first day of work.. went for orientation.. walked around the club.. although i used to go there every sat for bowling.. and now.. can't believe tat i'm working there liao~ haa.. went ard the office shaking hands with EVERYBODY in the office in every single department.. damn funny la.. then went to my department.. (Special division ok.. mai siao siao) collegues are really nice, drove me to chinatown to buy mahjong set and tabao lunch back, went out for collection and lost our way.. haaa.. and i sprained my ankle, on my first day of work.. damn happening ok.. haaa.. and it's at the carpark lo.. darn it.. i missed a step and goonnnee~~ wearing heels somemore.. then my collegues all offered to drive me go see chinese doctor.. but all closed.. drove to redhill say closed for dinner.. haa.. end up my collegue even accompanied me to see doc until like 8 plus.. wah.. Gan dong sia! BUt really really really grateful tat i gt this job.. its something tat i had imagined myself being happy.. =) But, not to mention late nites, burnt weekends and lack of sleep la.. i'll be v bz until the end of AHM on 27th Aug.. BUT! I must still try to make time for Kosen Rufu! I everything and everyone cannot be neglected! haa.. and yesterday desmond n ah lay was telling gerald to prepare hot red bean and ah tap chee hot one for me.. haa.. if u get wat i mean.. ;p

Finally, my prayers were answered.. i prayed so hard and i really wanted to prove tat i will NOT do an administrative job tat is desk bound and do repetitive things Every Single Day.. No way. I wanna show even more actual proof tat i can do it and do it well now tat i gt wat i wanted to do.. I wanna show actual proof to everyone tat i have changed for the better! Never doubt the power of the Gohonzon! I want to know my mission in life! So many determinations! I hope tat i can prove it thru my ACTIONS! Not words! Wo hui jia you de.. Kan wo de ba!

2006-07-18T11:29:00.000-07:00

An apology....

To my dearest friends.. this is an apology i have to make.. for making you guys go thru all those shite with me.. haa.. =)

These past few days have been a life changing experience for me.. i've decided not to be weak and indecisive anymore.. i've set my determination to change my life and treat everyone else better! And, i've come to realised tat it is not physical assets nor money can bring happiness to one.. but instead, i should be thankful and I AM THANKFUL that i have wonderful friends like you. Every single one of you. These 21 yrs of my life is nt wasted cuz i have the best present already.. which is every one of u..

Especially to the crazy ones, mei an, kinda, kenji, leng, des, xian mei, nie nie, wan ling, seng and rich.. and the not so crazy ones.. whom i love dearly too.. My fellow IICs, let, ah lay, des, kev and jick for ur endless encouragements.. Dun worry guys SUNSHINE LILING is coming back! Let's bring SPSD into even greater heights! It's our mission to be there! Let's WIN! The rest of my SPSD girls, both old n new.. karen, joan, qi qi and many more.. thank u ya all for being there for me.. ALWAYS and sending me abudant daimoku and prayers.. I will not disappoint you all. I WILL grow to become stronger and wiser! It is time for me to do my own Human Revolution!

Not forgetting my dear o' gerald.. thanks dear for being there for me.. for talking sense and shit into me.. for hangin on to the phone with me.. for all the frustrations and anger i gave u.. for making the effort to come to find me even when u are so so tired after a long day.. esp after NDP trainings and shows.. Thank u for everyting even though u always ask urself y u love me so much.. even when i'm so fat, lazy and weak.. haa... u noe why.. CUZ I GT MEI LI WU FA DANG.. and i cook good pasta too.. haa... the way's to the man's heart is thru his tummy.. wahhaha.. but siao.. u htink i cook everyday meh.. haaa... MUAHAH.. Lub u la lub u.. haaa.. Thanks for making me realise so many things n being there for me..i must have accumulated alot of good fortune to have met you.. (^_^)

And so.. my 21st birthday wish is for all of u, u, u, my friends to be strong, healthy and be forever a sunshine to everyone u meet! And for me to change to become someone better and stronger n be a pillar of support for anyone! My dear friends let's really fight on together and WIN! we are all in this together! Like gerald said, no one gets left behind!

From the bottom of my heart.. i wan to say.. I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U!!! Please take gd care of urself n SORRY k for anything n everything.. BIG HUGGIE FOR EVERYONE!!! muaah!

Apology's accepted? (^_^)

2006-07-16T23:11:00.000-07:00

Birthday ..

Why must there be bdays?? HMmm.. Just sucks all ur money for all the momentary happiness.. haa..Hmmm.. i'm old.. getting old.. feeling old and feeling cold.. haaa.. rhymes leh.. ANYWAY, just had my bday over the weekends.. first of all, i wanna thank everyone who celebrated my bday with me.. esp my crazy gangsters, zha0 yang and gerald soh yi de.. .. thanks for having dessert lunch with me.. n my NYC mates.. haa.. thanks for giving me my 30 seconds of fame at Newton circus ar.. haaa.. THANK U EVERYONE!!

And, i would like to apologise to my crazy gangsters.. sorry for making a huge fuss out of my bday.. really sorry ya.. and yes, i cried.. cuz it wasnt wat i expected it to be.. n i felt bad cuz its my 21st and i didnt wanted to end it this way.. but i tot at least could have told me wat's happening.. maybe i wasnt appreciative enough and expected too much. So sorry if i gt anyone annoyed or fed up with me! I'm so sorry.. i'm too easily swayed by the 8 winds! baa!! And dear, so sorry for making u feel so bad n angry.. i'm weak! Thanks for accompanying me thru the nite and sorry for being so grouchy.. baaaa... Pirates is nice.. y u fall asleep.. aiya..

I know u all care alot for me.. esp in me getting a job, being independent and decisive.. Tat's y i feel so bad tat u all worry so much for me n i'm still here.. =\ Not tat i didnt try.. i did. Is it not enough? Yes.. i think so.. i really wan you all to see a whole new me noe, not the Liling being so weak, so easily cry, so indecisive, so dependent on gerald, so everything!! I hope Liling does not get onto ur nerves ya? I'm beginning to get a bit disgusted with myself for being this way.. like nw.. see, i'm crying already.. haaa.. So soorry for making u guys worry.. Thanks for all ur patience and prayers... the rest is up to me.. =)

Now praying hard to find my mission in life.. to get a job tat i can challenge myself the most! Kinda says challenge gt 2 type, 1 is ur enjoy urself while challenging it.. the other is u challenge urself with much unhappiness.. so which one will i go into? CHallenge 1 or challenge 2? Or is it tat i'll have to goo a detour, a longer way until i noe wat i wan to do in my life and where my mission lies?

I dunno.. i feel left out sometimes when i see all of u are so happy at times.. u gt a gd job, gd life not to mention with challenges n obstacles i'm happy for all of u.. but i dunno sometimes i'm nt happy myself.. =\ Happiness is nt an external factor nt someone can give to u forever but something tat is decided by urself.. I want to be happy! I want to be strong! I want to be courageous! I wanna be a good friend! I want to be a good IIC who can encourage all my members and see them achieve actual prove! I want to be a good girlfriend! I want to be a good daughter! I want to be i want to be i want to be! So much i want to be-sss... hmmm.. I will acheive it! Jia you!! Please give me some time to change! I will definately change for the better de!

Just wanna thank everyone whom i met, loved and accquainted in my past 21 years of my life. I'm thankful for being alive and i pray tat all of u will continue to live great lives, be happy and most of all love life! A BIG BIG HUGGIE FOR EVERYONE!!!!!

2006-05-22T21:25:00.000-07:00

I"M SO FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP!!!!!

aRGGHHH!!!! SO ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!! MY PATIENCE IS RUNNING SUPER DUPER LOW!!

I feel so alone!! First, i'm jobless.. which might be good in a way, but no income how? Maybe I'm fussy.. but then again, what do i want in life? What do i wan to do? I feel like going to hospitality or tourism sector but will my parents allow me to? Will i be able to accomodate my life? To Gakkai? To Gerald? To family? To friends? Arghh.. i'm happy for all my friends who already got a job, esp those which they like.. but then again, i'm envious. Because they got a job, which means income will come in and you can do so much more.

Right now is just lost, lost and even more lost. Maybe i haven been chanting hard enough.. Sansho shima has been attacking us esp the IICs.. It feels really tough to be struggling alone.. I feel so alone and my patience is running lowwwww... I cant really bother or add more troubles to Gerald cuz of the passing of his grandma. But i really feel tat its tough for him to console me.. but its like so many setbacks along the way, i've fallen but i picked myself up many times. How many times more do i have to fall? Its really a struggle everyday to wake up 11am in the morning, feel useless the whole day until the nite when i got gakkai activities.

And becuz i'm not working, i have to do the work of 6 people. Not to say tat the other IICs are not doing anything but it;s that rite now everyone's life's is not on the tracks yet. So therefore, i'm the only one who is free enough to go handle things. I noe, i'm collecting good fortune and such challenges will make me stronger and a better person. Its like the airplane theory. A plane needs resistance to fly. The resistance is sansho shima but it makes us fight even harder and work even harder. It occurs very strongly when we are on the right tracks, working towards the growth and happiness of all members. That is when sansho shima kicks in. Maybe it's time for me to get my act together n fight on viliantly. Alone.

Haaaaa.. feel better now.. i just need to cry n vent it all out. Feels alot better now.

I know alot of us are going thru a tough patch nw. But i'm sure that we'll reap wat we sow. No prayers will never go unanswered and winter will never fail to turn into spring. To do that, we must really have that strong ichinen and WCC [mei an will noe wat i mean. haaa] (Wisdom, Courage and Compassion) to go all out to overcome our obstacles and do KR.

But is it karma that whatever the leaders are the members will be too? I have so much dreams and goals for SPSD. I wan SPSD to grow even more than before to establish a really firm standing in SP. Spreading the the philosphy of SGI = peace, culture and education. And i really wan all the members to be happy and their friends to be able to embrace this Buddhism. BUT. WHY???? WHY??? Must be karma, honestly i can say, we are not united at all.. FOREVER there is miscommunications. FOREVER the response time is SLOOOWWW.... might be me, i doing that tat's why my members are also like tat. ARghhh.... so f*** up. Why can't we get a task done? And it keeps dragging and dragging and the end product is like.. WAT? After meeting up so many times this it is?

I mean i agree with wan lu that SPSD have a serious problem with efficency and puntuality. For a student, studies is the most important, whats the point of meeting up so many times and then not achieving anything? Its like a slap on the face, hello~??? How can we impart the sense of mission and responsiblity into them? Can't always get the same old people to keep things running while the younger ones just tag along and have fun. It's not all fun and games noe. What's the basis of our practise? I'm sure all of u noe. It's Faith, Practise and Study. Am i right? We cannot always come for meeting only to have fun. Important thing is that we all grow together n faith and fight countless victorious battles together. I'm sorry to say this if you are a member and reading this. I just need a venting outlet. I know i shouldnt be saying all these but its tough. DO you understand? I'm only human. I know its alot of stress on you too but let's really take things seriously and fight on together can? I know some of you are new and still have lots of things to learn. If now's not the time, then when? It's not impossible. I just need EVERYONE to get their act together. PLEASE?

We still have sooo much more to improve on. Like reaching out to our members and fighting along with them. How bout home visits? Dialogue? Meetings? Its all equally important. I dun wan to e strict with the members that's why i'm v relax in letting you do whatever you wan to go as long as you FEEDBACK FEEDBACK FEEDBACK and FEEDBACK. But am i getting any? NOOOO... Send msg. Normally will get no acknowledgement. Need to send 3 times to people then will get reply. Maybe i'm doing that too.. but i'm really trying v v hard to change. ARE YOU? Even if you didnt get the thing done, even if its just alil. It's ok. I'm not going to scold you or blacklist you, no. None of us will do that. We'll all the more encourage you and help u. So please.. i really BEGGG of you to really response. LEt's do things together in itai doshin. Not as indivduals. Even as individuals, we must stand tall and fight on with courage. Remember? Courage is very important? I'm know we can be very good when it comes to planning a meeting with fun n games, but at the end of it most importantly, did the members and friends gained anything from it? As always after a wonderful meeting, of excellent attendance after a meeting, you wont see that particular member or friend again. Its like what have we instilled into them? That i really wan you to go think about it. I really hope tat you will really taking into consideration wat i've just said. We can;t go on saying never mind its ok, things will get better. We need to eradicate the problem from the root. People, please. MOVE IT!

We really need to do something bout it. If not we will never grow.

Itai Doshin
Faith, Practise, Study
Willingness to do moreInitiative
Promptness in response
Initiative
Puntuality
Efficiency
Seeking spirit

Just to share, here's what my brother told me. If you want to achieve absolute happiness and to get the best job or in your case studies or whatso-ever. You'll have to devote yourself totally to the happiness of your members and to work for the sake of Kosen-Rufu. You must develop an indestructible life condition basing our every struggle on the strategy of the Lotus Sutra. Can we all do that? It's tough, i noe, all of us face this problems. Because we have friends, school work, family, bf/gf. We are all common mortals, we have earthly desires. But earthly desires equals to enlightenment. No resistance. How can we take off and fly? No resistance can a seagull soar up higher than the sky? But never never forgot the basis of our practise and base our life on the strategy of the Lotus Sutra. Together always we must fight together we must win! Always go back to the Gohonzon whenever we meet with a deadlock n chant with sincere determination. Prayers must always be followed by taking actions. Just chanting alone is not good enough. We chant to manifest our buddha wisdom n innate buddha nature to tackle our problems. It must be followed by action!!

Just wanna say my piece, i feel better now. I really worry for SPSD. Really. I really hope lets all not lose direction in life. No, it does not mean that we are no-lifers. We can still go chill out, pub in the weekends and have fun. We all need a break once or twice a week. Think of it as living life to the fullest and accumulating a whole lot of gd fortune! Feels good now. N i hope tat YOU are reflecting upon urself rite now. You can be angry, sad or be in a disagreement with me. But really hope tat we'll all get up and GO, MOVE, RUN! Really hope tat TODAY, TOMORROW and EVERYDAY will be a even better day filled with challenges and victories. And i will definately pray that you and i have the high life condition to face any "surprise" or setbacks along the way. We shall fight on together and really build the close bond within each of us which will last us a life time. CAN???

The IICs are always praying for all your great growth and for each of you to be awakend to ur mission in life. Let's all strive on together. Can? No matter wat, i'll be standing by all of you. Thank you. I feel sooooo much better now. v(^_^)v

P.S: This post is not meant for anyone in particular but in general SPSD.

2006-04-21T01:51:00.000-07:00

Sorry
i'm gone for so long! For all my other friends.. here's a short update of me.. cheers!

www.gentingkl.blogspot.com
I WANT TO PUT BIG BIG!!
OK, laugh at me.. i'm fat.. liek a balloon.. haaa.. and i'm jobless.. anyone gt lobang?

2005-12-18T08:46:00.000-08:00

Lazy la..

Aiyo.. so long nv blog... lazy la.. so many things happen everyday also.. hmmm... its like wan to noe more details refer to all my other friends.. hahaha.. cuz wat's happening in my life = to tat of theirs.. just a different side of the story only la... haha

MMMMmmm.. ok... alrite to sum up.. MAYDAY concert is really HIGH FAN TIAN!! didnt really get to sit down since it started... but the concert ground at max pavillion sucks la... flat ground all the way.. pple in front stand cannot see liao lo.. so we stand on chair la, jump and screamed like there's no tml... hahahha.. really great great fun! after concert was liek 12am liao so no more MRT, muz take taxi lo.. damn extra extra 2 bucks.. so is like starting pay is 4.40 lo.. hahah.. anyway, we decided to go orchard supper anyway and take NR home..

Eh... then was yesterday, it was the CLS charity show tat SPSD had agreeed to perform in and the SD GM where i was the EMCEE.. yeah! hahah... tin lay say i really had brought out my aunty quality in me liao la.. haha.. can join her club liao la.. haha.. ya lo ah lay, aunty like tat one ma.. .YESSS!!!!??? (cups hand on ear awaiting for audience to respond..) haha... erm... CLS perfomance was alrite la... crowd still quite responsive... overall is good... had some HAI DAI fun before our show at 1pm.. hahah... after which i have to rush down to TBSC for the SD GM..

kao, my ang moh sucks man... knn.. haha.. .oops.. recently like to say knn and machiam liek tat.. ok.. erm.. when reach TBSC.. met JEff my partner... then we run thru the script.. actually feel quite guilty liek i bully him.. cuz like he my junior then i told him i might not follow the script ma.. u noe me la, i dun wan it to be like mono tonous like from a script like tat.. so ya.. he v ke lian cuz he practically bei the whole script liao..

and so the show started, actually alot of things unexpected happened la... now i noe hw it feels to be sitting in front there... sorta have control of the whole program liek tat.. ya.. GD ong was late, his supposed to lead in the prayers.. but he when he came he immediately took over and went straight into gongyo!! we stun tio! haven say anything bout todays prayer leh!! haha.. nvm.. go on.. then got alot of speeech we nv get the say la.. then lucky gt my SPSD pple to help me to scream for me.. hahah.. THANKS GUYS ur performance was EXPLOSIVE!! i'm sure everyone's v v v impressed!! XIE XIE NIE!!!!.. da da da da, da da da da, da da da da da da da! YEAH! (the zhong yi da ge da ending song) then then runnign really really late le lo the program.. so muz realyl chop chop.. i also gt take away Jeff's part of this script lo.. hah.. sorry jeff!!

most most memorable was the power pt presentation.. hahah.. think of it was really the protection n gd fortune of the gohonzon!! haha.. during the prayers tat time really prayed v hard tat everything muz really go v v smoothly n we'll be able to conduct it in high spirits no matter wat! ya.. v lucky.. cuz when the ppt is supposed to start, the lights are out, then.. blank screen.. wah liao.. siao liao siao liao la.. then i see wen sheng at the other side of the hall mouthing, talk talk.. then i take up the mike.. and say.. "Sorry technical fault.. Clap la, clap liao then gt thing!" then.. zhun zhun! gt red screen come out sia.. everyone broke into laughter!! hahah.. then it went blank again! then i say again clap la this time will have picture.. then... BOOM! gt picture! the slide's show ready.. wahahhaha.. really really damn lucky sia.. haha.. but then into half of the ppt, the music i think forget to loop ar then stopped liao lo.. but still gt the music la.. hahah... overall.. great fun.. but i still think tat still nt good enough la... i should have been better lo.. really..

then at nite went with gerald to his saturday nite fever bowling session at Mt faber safra with his kakhis.. b4 tat go buy ROy's bday present.. in the end wasted he only wear HUGO belts.. haha.. sian diao.. but at bowling eh.. siao siao play 4 times all gt more than 100 pts leh.. haha... 2 more 2 more.. now stakes higher liao leh.. 120... 2 more 2 more.. heh heh...

to the loo!!! buahahaha... hope have good week ahead!!

2005-12-07T08:24:00.000-08:00

alrite alrite.. have to blog.. bo time leh.. so tired everyday.. photo blog can?

Ok la some updates.. erm.. up coming events:
Dec 10 - MAYDAY CONCERT!!
DEC17 - Stomp Performance in SP and at SD GM.. Me is EMCEE!! pple pls scream louder when i ask u all to respond k!
DEC 21 - Happy Bday DEAR!!

See wat see, cannot let me enjoy my breakfast meh?

Sua gu gerald nv climb rock wall b4

Ting Ho (sec skool junoir) propellor of Gerald.

Help! I'm fallin!!

And at Toy'R'Us.. being the crazy duo, we decided to be ah bing ge and mei!!

Salute!

Chao geng look like monkey

Same same but different?

Chicken Lil friends!

Standard Charter Half Marathon.. ahh.. taste so gd.. as if.. hahaha

My fav photo of all..

Bustop

2005-11-24T12:54:00.000-08:00

Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire sucks~

Well.. nt really.. the story was alrite... but just tat maybe 5 years of Hogwary magical, Potter and his friends, somehow, the story has lost abit of it charm.. esp it's child like charm.. the graphics and animations was good.. i made me feel tat i'm in the 60s staring with amazement at the screen like suddenly like nv see animation like tat b4.. haha.. story was kinda short.. like no surprise like tat.. since i knew partially how the story went.. BUT BUT BUT... wat really spoilt the show was pple who had read the book and can't keep their mouth shut during the movie!!

DAMN IRRITATED LO HOR.. throughout the show the 3 pple sitting behind me was like.. E.g. Cedric first appears in the screen and they will go like, tat's Cedric.. and ALL THE OTHER SCREENS too loh.. Hermione!!.. no no.. tat weed (used to help hp breathe in water) isnt it supposed to be wobbly? Tat's Krum.. no la, its.... (Camera moves into scene..) they will go like wat place wat place... Wah liao.. i mean.. wat the hell.. throughout the whole show lo.. and they were nt even trying to whisper lo.. they are talking.. wtf! Wan to talk go out and talk la.. go read the book.. pple like me who have nv read the book dun need pple like you to forecast the screens of me can.. damn qi ge lo.. i already gt try to turn alil and do the typical irritated sound of .. zirrmk... then still talk.. then i even try to tell gerald quite loud lo tat the pple behind v irratating pple wanna watch show not read the book lo.. wah lan eh.. damn irritated

They BLOODY HELL (ron) spoilt my show.. thanks leh.. PLS pple.. next time if wanna watch movie.. PLS KEEP UR MOUTH WIDE SHUT!..

2005-11-22T22:33:00.000-08:00

FINALLY GT TIME TO BLOG

YO!! so sorry ar.. its been a REALLY REALLY LOOOOOONGG time since i blogged.. but nv.. still can see the updates on all my other friend's blog... so many things have happened!! arghh.. where gt time to blog aiyo.. gt attachment, gt SPSD events to keep me BUSY enough... gt css prom coming up next... phew.. finally gt time to rest at home and reach home early before 8pm sia.. normally is like 11 plus then reach lo... haiz... mama papa xing ku ni le.. let u all worry for me...

So much things.. nw tat free le.. nt used to it.. cuz busy better than nt bz.. like tat life more fulfilling ma.. hee... erm.. dunno wat to say leh.. maybe just let my friends noe tat i'm ok lo.. hhaha.. eh... say last week la.. whole week except for friday nv get to see my crazy gang pple.. cuz we are all bz planning, doing, practicing for last saturday's STOMP performance.. back by popular demand.. heh heh.. and sunday's sentosa's outing.. do souvneir.. alot of pple's de xing xue lo.. but overall, i think it's a great success overall la.. talk bout STOMP first.. erm... sat performance quite shock.. cuz tot all are youth then come all.. auntie uncles.. ah ma ah gongs.. erm.. then they nt v reactive la hor... clap clap clap ask them clap they like blur blur like tat..but nvm la... we had fun anyway.. thanks alot pple!! JOB WELL DONE!!

Sunday's outing to sentosa was TIRING!! arghh.. run run.. we did a version like amazing race like tat.. we set off last... our NAI QUeen bo luck... first one to kick out of finals.. haha.. so we have to wait lo. .but nvm we BABY PAMPERS POO POO out for all of them.. hahah.. ya.. me and gerald is GL... haiz.. haha.. sure quarrel one we.. hahah.. planning and such cannot put us together one.. hahahah.. sure fight.. hahaha.. but our grp quite on lo.. gt meul, dik,zhen wei who joined us later.. karen, jeslyn, zhen yu and ahem.. janice..gerald and me la.. for task 6.. kns.. we gt lost... as in us the girls... read the map wrongly, luckily met tian ying's (my cus) friends noe the place well gt us out of our pit.. our deear boys are already at the 7th checkpt waiting for us liao... hahha.. after a super LOONG walk cuz cannot take bus.. finally reached siloso.. met cheng ge and his grp.. hahah... liqi they all already finished looong ago wan to go 7-11 lo.. hahah.. but nvm.. we all grp of 16 play the keep the ball up in the air 100 times.. quite fast le.. we achieved it within like 5 mins.. haha..qutie fun.. actually i tot tat game was the one i felt gt the most team work la.. hahhah.. after the cup 100 sandcastles.. we finished.. 2nd.. from the back la.. hhahah.. nt bad le la... last to 2nd last.. can la... hahahah..

after which.. we gt our souvneirs.. took photos.. and then i was thrown into sea by gerald la.. hahahah... shiok ar.. then now i noe.. leng and mei an was shouting.. "BF is u choose one!!" haha... so bad they all .. hahah.. karma.. they gt thrown into sea by their bf too.. wahahahhaah... orh bee orh bee.. hahahah.. then more and more pple gt thrown into sea la.. i think its really really good fortune and benefit tat we really prayed for gd weather lo.. not too hot.. not too cold.. really lo.. i think the skies really hold v long until the next day then blast all out man.. haha.. sunday's weather was perfect.. no sun.. windy.. nice weather.. actual proof.. mmm.. and I>>>>> honestly, have been really lacking in faith.. arghh.. really is samsho shima.. kns.. everyday go home so tired tat dun wan to do gongyo.. so now.. must stop here and go do gongyo.. after a v long time.. haiz.. hope i can blog more.. work's piling up... argh.. darn it... should us MS access or Mysql... argh.. wisdom is wat i need...

2005-11-03T01:15:00.000-08:00

Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul.
You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have.
Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone.
You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Ah.. somehow, i tot i was the happy child.. well.. its quite true in a way.. wat it says.. but so qiao tat all 3 of us, leng me and larry inner children are sad?? hmmmm...

Anyway, went back to skool today for ITP briefing, met my LO, had a great day spent with my classmates.. went to Yuki Yaki for dinner buffet at SOME PLACE DOWNTOWN.. cant say, cuz i'll be infringing IP laws in the last sentence in this paragraph so cannto say.. and darn the place had changed alot! ya.. the one can make ice cream in a pan one.. ya.. nt bad but kinda ex on eves of p hols and p hols la.. if nt student price on normal days only 12 plus onli.. Will post up pictures too!! thnaks alot to Edwinnie for paying half for me and Summer!! AND WHY ARE THE ATM MACHINES SO BLOODY FAR!! I HAVE TO WALK LIKE 3 LEVELS OVER AND OVER AGAIN TO FIND A STUPID ATM MACHINE AND THE SIGNS ARE NT USEFUL AT ALL K!!

Then b4 dinner we went for bowling.. knn.. i hate wooden lanes!! always make my ball go hamster left! kns! pui! Ya, had this deal with Gerald ma.. if i can hit 10, one hundreds, which is 1000 in total, he'll buy a ball for me.. so far... i had hit SIX hundred already... all at mount faber safra.. only at there my home ground then i can play well.. kns.. now i noe.. muz well spects annd play then can play well, cuz spects gt axis ma.. hahaha.. can adjust adjust.. then cannot put my name.. must put LING then can.. its a thing i must follow.. if nt cannt play well one.. hahahah...

Arghh.. now i damn pek chek.. cuz i dunno if i wanna go pple will be going to malaysia.. and i NEED to catch the bus back on sat afternoon in order back to malacca for my dental appointment on friday! cuz.. its the hols.. and many many MANY pple will be travelling.. I need to attend KENSHU on sat which one should i choose should i go for kenshu and go in on the 19th with my cousin.. whom i hope will be drvining in.. but if go in then.. kns, i'll miss my appointment by 2 months le!! sian.. i wan to get these mental thing out fast!! i think i beginning to look uglier each day.. argh.. nt to say i'm superficial or wat.. but u look gd, u feel good!!

Nvm, shall chant for wisdom to make the best decision... mmm!! Oh, ya.. i also included links in my blog le.. so in case anyone of ya come read and feel bored.. can go read my other gd friends bloggies k!! special thanks to Cheng ge ge and Kinda the bei xian zhan huo zhuoed victim of cheng ge ge.. hahaha..

2005-10-31T12:57:00.000-08:00

NEVER GONNA DRINK AGAIN

Last nite, went for a mini gathering with the crazy gang... inclusive of "AN ZHANG"(dirty couple).. hahah.. kidding la.. mei an and xiao zhang, so add together get AN ZHANG lo.. hahah.. then have me and gerald, leng and Vic.. us representing the Plural club.. haha.. and desman,yong seng,rich,kinda, xian mei representing the Singular club..

And so, we went to Cafe Iguana down at Clarke Quay.. i didnt had my dinner, and then came the Mango and Pink Guava magaritas and also the Nachos and Pitas.. its' a mexican theme cafe btw.. its nice.. and then, as usual, i knew my face will turn red with alil bit of alcohol, due to the fact tat i dun drink often.. ya.. after the food, some chat and 3/4 of my drink.. i felt quesy, face RED and mind's blurrish.. i asked gerald out for a walk.. and 50 metres later... PUKEEE!!! VOmited like everything out.. by the river.. at the gutter.. the smell of the cheese nachos.. n e magarita.. EUUII!! made me puked even more.. THRU MY NOSE... wa liao... i damn lang bei sia.. then gerald was laughing at me.. dunno how to drink still drink.. I WASNT FORCING MYSELF ok.. haha.. the drink taste great..

After tat sat along the sidewalk.. unable to move.. feel like sleeping.. but then stand up wan to puke.. and Oh, btw, the i puked into a fountain.. hahahah.. so tat fountain has alot of my puke in it! haha.. i can still smell the puke in my nose even now~ yeah.. damn lang bei lo can? haha.. and so paiseh.. gerald have to go get the girls to come look after me while he go draw money n buy hot tea for me.. he still say if next time if he nt with me then who look after me? later gt one ang moh walk pass and say wan to bring me home how? hahah.. aww.. thanks dear.. and also thanks alot to everyone esp kinda and xian mei for giving me a massage.. thanks! u made me feel better! and an mei mei for suggesting gerald to buy .ginger cookies for me.. my fave!! and leng for comming into the toilet to check on me... for the guys who came by and asked if i;m ok... haha.. yeah.. i felt alot better after puking and all.

After tat, we took photo at the bridge.. got one Nihongo shuai ge take for us.. then xian mei mei keep saying arigato arigato and tell him in Jap tat she's cute! hahaha... ya... then by the side gt trishaw uncle play the song damn hip one.. we all sang along la.. esp gt duet song.. everyone was like lookin at us sial.. hahah... then went past the GMAX.. we shouted from the other side of the river.. "DUN SCARED!!" actually is make them scared la... when it blasted off.. we screamed for them.. haha.. we are damn kuku man.. haha... but it was a fun nite wasnt it? haha.. today, start skool for most of u guys, only me and mei an free till attachment starts next mon... hmmm.. wat shall we do?? HAHAHA.. ok... PPLE, JIA YOU!! esp to yr 3.. last sem le.. dun waste it k!!

2005-10-29T13:49:00.000-07:00

Gd day!

heh heh.. recently i'm in a goodmoodd... heh heh... cuz mainly becuz our cultural item for sensei's video guidance was a great success!! it's indeed a gd performance guys!! i'm glad tat all of us had put in our hearts and souls for it.. many thanks to everyone and esp kenji! till now i still cannot forget all the H H H H H and F H FF H... hahahah... thanks too those who kept hitting the pails.. cheng ge ge, nie nie and kat!! u guys did great!! and all the others who made this "STOMP" performance a really special and creative one just like wan xiang said!! I really hope tat it really inspired e audiences and each and everyone one in SPSD.. may the bond and even more greater friendships to be forged between everyone!! Let's grow together!!

Then then yesterday, gt my attachment posting.. I gt posted to Giro Digital Technology at Ayer Rajah, inside JTC.. doing Web design, Nw management and Database man/design.. well, i think its really gd fortune lo.. cuz i really pray hard tat i dun wan to have programming and i really didnt get it and instead gt my first 3 choice. And also, its near to skool and kai kans too!! tat means i need nt travel far and wide to meetings! and plus, i have a direct bus from home! yeah!! It;s reallly gd gd fortune!! Its really actualy proof! My really thank e Gohonzon!! now must pray hard for a gd working environment and tat i can learn alot and get along well with my colleagues.

BUT then.... i'm still not doing my best.. i thnk i'm nt even tryin to contribute back to 4D, really dunno why.. i'm just keep giving myself excuses.. arghh... i'm trying... but somehow, i feel lousy whenever i go for 4D, i dun feel welcomed lo... =\ maybe is it tat i didnt put in any efforts at all? haiz... hear leng say bout her feelin alil stressed bout things and the YWDs, i feel like shit.. hahahah... anyway.. hope for the better ba!

Grow now together! Hey! Cant u hear our cries! Grow now together! Change other people's life! Smile now forever! Let's feel the whole with joy! We'll make this our endeavours! Young Eagles lets us FLY!!!

2005-10-20T17:48:00.000-07:00

O hotel makes me wanna shit.. maybe becuz its a shitty place... never fails to give me a shitting sensation.. maybe next time went i've got constipation, i'll just go to tat hotel...

2005-10-19T11:09:00.000-07:00

Hello!!

Sorrrrry pple... sorry for nt blogging for sometime leh... i've been bz with work...

OK, so work, thanks to mei an for introducing it to me.. work as bus coordinator for this company call Orient Explorer.. ya... oonly work 2-4 hours per day... and pay is like 10 buckaroos per hour.. ya... quite gd la.. relaz also.. but need to see forgeiner the lian she... (erh... attitude?) and e pple at O hotel are nt very nice... but nvm.. i shall still go there and smile at them.. =) its quite tiring.. and and to travel travel travel.. v v tired la..

ya... gt my semesteral results today... kinda sad.. cuz no (A)pple but i'm really glad tat i've got no (D)onkey la.. cuz i told myself tat i dun wan a D for this semester.. i tot i couldnt make it.. but eh.. ok la.. relieved lo..

DATA COMMUNICATIONS AND NETWORKING PROJECT
B

WIRELESS LAN
B

ETHICS AND LAW OF IT
B+

ESSENTIAL LINUX SYSTEM ADMINISTRATION
C

next up~ Sensei video cultural item preparations.. oh no.. i'm so dead.. its kinda tough... cuz my plan plan plan and actualise it.. i wan to do STOMP.. i noe its going to be tough.. i dun have much time... we dun have so much ying yue xi bao noe... arghh... need to get it done.. i need wisdom.. i need courage.. chant chant chant!!

2005-10-04T08:20:00.000-07:00

NEAR FATAL

in case anyone of u wondering.. yeah.. i had a near fatal.. almoost... i dunno break-up with gerald.. we really had a huge fight yesterday.. and i cried my eye balls out.. hahhahah.. had to pick it up and place it back into my head again.. darn, the maggot in my head is talking too much.. hahahah... (corpse bride) and talking bout it.. tat show was.. erm.. alrite.. hahah.. maybe gt some dark humor to it.. hahah... yeah.. kinda corny in away la.. but it's nice.. BUT.. BUT.. nt worth watching after MONs and Tues.. hee.. dun waste money.. but i like the end.. when emily turns into butterflies.. really nice the animation..

yeah.. back to the topic.. yeah.. just have some disagreements in our thinking and way we look at our relationship... ya.. dun wanna talk bout it.. ya.. but anyway.. we are ok now... =) really.. and to dear.. sorry bout it.. i noe u really give in to me alot... i noe.. but sometimes.. some thinking and the way u look at things and i look at things are diff.. maybe its time for me to give in to u sometimes la hor.. sorry dear.. made u really upset last nite.. but i'm glad we're ok now.. =)

then.. just came back from SPSD CIC meeting at LL's place.. thank's for letting out ur place.. and TOTO's so cute.. but naughty.. dun be angry with him k? he dun understand... hahahah.. well.. honestly, i'm feelin alot better! really.. guess i really needed it.. but at meeting i really felt LOUSY.. really like nt fit to be there like tat lo.. hahhah... but after the meeting.. i left gd.. really.. i'm nt fighting alone.. i realised tat.. =) and.. i finally get to do something meaningful.. and something to occupy me for 3 days this hols.. if nt i'm going to turn into a full time COOK at home.. almost every dinner i cook.. guess maama wan to train me up le.. hahahah... okie.. yeah.. PPLE *UUUhhhoooooo WAVES HANDS IN THE AIR* THERE'S A DIALOGUE WITH NATURE, PHOTO EXHIBITION ORGANISED BY THE YOUTH OF SSA, AT JURONG AND WOODLANDS LIBRARY EVERYDAY FROM 1 - 5PM FROM 5TH TO 15TH OCTOBER.. PLS DROP BY ANYTIME TO SUPPORT K? then tml i'll be there at 4 for the offical opening.. hahah.. come come.. or on 13th and 14th.. come come.. gt very nice things to see..

ok.. enough said.. pictures pictures..

at marche.. celebrate MR chai's 24th bday!! hahah.. the girls.. i miss ya peeps lots man.. (from left - xuan, wen, me, fen, bee, xin and ching yee..)

Xin and me

fen (yes, u can put ur spects back on now..)

Bee.. my dear dear friend.. =) darn, i'm baldin...

Miss Chong Chio Bu.. hahahah...

and then.. i'm thinking, sometimes i really feel kinda left out.. cuz.. they all had moved on.. since JC we seperated.. really miss those days back at CSS.. my council days.. when we all need nt worry bout anything much and really be one v happy family.. but.. yeah.. things have gt to change.. now they are in UNI.. and speak sometimes diff things.. so kinda sad and left out when they speak of school and pple they noe.. yeah.. but honestly being in Commonwealth was the best best bestest memory tat i ever had.. i could still remember the countless camps tat we did.. even after we all graduated.. we all came back for the love of our school for our bond.. all came back to contribute back to skooll.. but soon, it might all change... the tables might be turned.. but never e least, i will nv forget the council room, the numerous evenings at the stairs, the investitures tat we all fight to go.. the investitures and dances and events tat we all did.. and we even had our own batch song, and at graduation, we all cried and hugged each other.. the whole batch practically knew each other, boy or girl.. we were the best batch ever.. and so the teachers said.. we are the best and most dynamic batch ever.. well.. thanks for leaving me with so much so much sweet memories..the joy and pain and hardship tat we all had gone thru.. so many smiles so many laughter and tears were shed at this wonderful place i'll nv forget.. thanks alot guys.. love ya lots!!

Swensens

at Partyworld..

at our almost weekly bowling hideout.. mt faber safra.. I WANT MY BOWLING BALL

Saame clothes..

Him acting dumb....

Candid shot

2005-09-30T14:13:00.000-07:00

ok pple.. i'm back.. from my kuku chalet... ok.. let me begin with my my boring dictation of my chalet.. if ya free enough esp. now's the holidays. please, stay and read.. else.. shrugs*

Well... my chalet.. wasnt really kuku.. it was alrite.. but there was only like 3 girls.. out of 15 pple.. so.. DAY 1.. actually wanna go earlier to help the guys at the mart.. but.. summer last min.. apparently her friend is in some deep shit.. and she cant join us at the chalet.. i was like DAMN DAMN CRUSHED.. honestly, i was really disappointed tat my irritating duo cant be with me at the chalet and equals to 1/2 the fun.. damn sad...

anyway tat aside, and so i took off from my house to bedok mrt.. to find tat 2 of my friends are waiting for me at parkway parade.. so nice of them.. but, i alighted the bus too soon.. i alighted at the library.. hahah.. dumb and it was raining... like (-__-).. yeah.. finally took a cab down PP and the guys gt up and there we go, back to chalet at East coast..

damn, the AIBI advert tat is now showing is damn dumb.. plus the fisherman's friend want.. wat have it gt to do with the shirt popping open??

ok, back to the topic.. okie.. 3 girls.. tat means lesser the fun.. cuz the 2 other girls seldom talk.. arghh.. one is (ok i really really hope tat this doesnt get out and ard... PLEEASE..) ok.. one is squeaky... act cute.. omg.. i'm so dead if this leaks out.. okie.. then sometimes really bth.. i wonder why WN (initials are gd~~) like her?? hmmmm.... ook.. the other.. erm.. seldom talk to her.. ok... then as usual.. the guys are gamblin on top.. i was like wtf? come here gamble only?? wah liao.. 'damn fun neh..' ok.. then was bbq at nite.. AND THEN I REALISED... there are 3 types of bbq pple...

1- which is e most irritating one-- just do nothing and wait for food to be done and still ask for more..
2- which is like me-- just stay there bbq and nt eat much.. just bbq for other pple.. and yes (THEY R NT THANKFUL.. well exccept for a few... =D)
3- bbq and eat at the same time.. which is ok.. cuz u at least do something rite..

yeah.. sometimes like being under one roof with pple u can see the colors of tat person.. yeah.. after bbq watched tv.. till like 12.. cuz we waited for C to send I off.. ya hah.. then off we go for nite cycling. ALL THE WAY from the start of ECP to CHangi village... and WN gt lost cycling all the way to the front missing out 7-11 where we're supposed to stop for drink.. freak us out for a moment.. hahah.. and i tell u.. WAH LIAO Eh.. the Changi airport there the road ar... DAMNNNNNNNNN LoOooNNNGGGG ar... like nv nv ending lo.. hahah... but there was like 15 of us.. cycling on the road and all.. well... i didnt cycle fast fast.. and it was fun and enjoyable in a way.. cuz its relaxing and all.. but it wasnt the idea nite cycling.. yeah... i tot its supposed to be like everyone riding leisurely.. and chillin out on the bike and talking crap to each other.. but apparently,there was no one to talk to.. yeah.. i was quite behind until like almost reaching changi v tat time E caught up or i slowed down and yeah.. we talked.. it was kinda cool la.. hor winnie wasnt it?

ok.. then we reached CV FINALLY.. saw a few.. trannies.. (transexuals) yeah.. kinda cool.. some really quite chio leh.. hahaha.. had milo peng and prata kesong.. then we are off on our way back to chalet.. and yes, i was still at the back.. and along the airport road back.. really cannot see the backlights of the 11 pple in front as so.. wth.. cycle slowww lo.. then was left me and E.. we talked on our way back and he made some surprising findings bout me.. heh heh.. then its nice.. and then at tat moment.. i made some realisations bout myself... yeah.. then finally gt back to chalet.. everyone already damn shagged and didnt sleep till like 6 plus 7.. yeah then slept till like 10am.. then we went to return the bikes and went off to marine parade to makan.. initially.. i was pissed cuz i dun get to play bowling and i'll have to walk all the way to the bus stop u noe how far it is la.. under e hot sun.. then go hawker makan.. after makan go play pool.. like wa.. damn fun lo hor.. like super waste time lo.. really damn sad tat there;s nt enough girls.. have to follow e guys.. like hai~~ haha... then played till 3.. then gt FIRE drill.. haha.. have to walk 10 storeys down.. like (-__-) again.. hahah...

the rest of the details.. oh.. i rem.. i slept on the floor when i went back to chalet.. the guys went up to sleep.. the 4 pple play MAhJONG.. and i slept.. when i woke up.. went to the beach alone.. and hell.. no one cared where i went man.. if i was like missing for over hours then how? hahah.. when to the beach and caught the last few rays of tuesday.. and there i was , on the beach.. with e wind blowing onto my face.. i tried to think.. i trired to think of wat i wanna do for the hols.. wat i wan.. wat i need.. but.. nthing.. i cant think at tat moment.. all i wanna do is to relax n enjoy e moment to myself.. but i did realise something...

1-- i hate small talks.. really really sux at it.. n as i told E tat i wanna talk to pple whom i can talk to and inspire each other and encourage each other.. but rite at the beach.. i tot.. of wat E said.. he said tat tat's why its impt to make small talk to pple.. u will at least noe wat tat person is doing and then u wont feel so left out... and then i tot he was wrong but he wasnt.. he's rite.. President Ikeda once said tat if he only had 5 mins he would write a letter to encourage someone.. if he had 15 or 30 mins.. he would like to have diagloue with someone.. and then i tot i'm wrong.. i'm suppose to talk to someone anyone.. to encourage tat person and open up my life.. i must try to open up...

2- i really really draaggg going back to 4D.. really.. its the wrong thinking.. but yes.. i feel really left out.. i cant do small talks and its really a personal barrier.. everyone might think tat liling is this super friendly, cheerful person who can talk to anyone under the sky.. but no.. i think my cancerian traits are showing.. i used to think i'm a extrovert.. but i'm so wrong.. i think i'm a introvert.. if nt.. then i'm choosy.. i choose pple whom i can or cannot communicate with.. and yes.. i dunno wat i'm going to do when i leave SP.. when i leave SD.. i need my friends.. my commrades.. pple to fight along with me.. but i'm honestly, losing it.. i have been missing meetings.. and nt putting efforts into practise... i'm slowwly degrading.. this sucks.. i am nt worthy to become assistant district leader.. pls dun put me as one.. i'm nt ready, i'm nt up to it.. and i'm nt worthy of it.. pls pls.. i'm nt as gd as u pple tink i am... really..

And so i went back to chalet as it was dark already.. they gt ready for bbq too and then again, i helped in bbqing again.. i dunno leh.. maybe somehow deep inside i enjoy doing something for them.. like bbqing the food for them and seeing their sastified faces but.. where's my thank u? hahah.. i mean i;m nt tat particular bout it.. but.. tat shows how much pple cared and appreciated me.. apparently, nt much.. hahah..

the rest of the nite was spent by the guys playing bingo.. courtesy of me.. but i nv win.. haiz.. and them playing dice game.. loser drink and they were really crazy.. lotsa vomitting, shouting and unstable legs.. hahaha... cannot stand properly... after which, i went to the beach with jq,e and wn.. at ard 530am to sleep.. the sea breeze damn shoik ar!! slept till like 6 plus.. then went back cuz its going to rain.. then went back.. everyone like dead fish like tat.. and C gt a really serious hangover.. really relly.. v v jiat lat.. cannot stand.. keep vomitting.. eyes swollen.. aiyo.. just looking at him very pitiful ar.. have to have pple to support him then can walk.. then walk a few steps puke a few steps.. puked in the room, toilet, pathway, corridor.. like so much vomit to puke.. hahahah.. but v ke lian la he.. so took a cab back with a few of them... yeah.. after tat had breakfast at bedok and went home... haiz.... dunno to say whether its eventful or not.. bt i'm sure the guys had a great time.. well..till next time.. =\

2005-09-24T02:38:00.000-07:00

PICS GALORE... AND PHOTOSHOP CRAZY!!

Haha.. yeah.. finally can upload the pics already leh... yeah.. some more being photoshop.. just suudenly took it up.. some might nt be nice la.. but still.. enjoy!!

Happy Birthday AH MA! and Happy Latern Festival!

Erica and Me

Laterns at ah ma house..

Rico and Hendric.. FOREVER.. muahahahah

Cousins

Happy Birthday Ah! Wish u gd health and longetivity.. its nt even half the family!

Jump Jump flew down esp from UK.. NOT! hahhah

And so.. our journey has came to an end.. Introducing the members of the group...

FEATURING.... (music pls!!)( rolls in Power Puff Girls song.. ta na ta ta na ta ta na na.. Love love love love love..)

Xiao Mai = Dua Tao (Big Head or Programming God).. Fav Words: Yessssssssssssss???(slowwly)

Edwinnie = Assistant Tao = Mr Zirrrmmk = Fav Words: Zirrrrmk!

Summer = Programming Idoit no 1 = Irritatin Duo no 2 = Fav Words: Edwin, you mei you xiang wo?

Henche = Fat ? Fit = Batam = Fav Words: Ngai ar! Bu yao fan wo!! Ni zhuo kai la!! ( indo accent)

Neng neng = Mr Blow hot and cold = Fav Words: Zhuo kai la! (Waves hand in the air)

Ling = Programming Idoit no 2 = Irritating Duo no 1 = Fav Words: Neng Neng!! (Pinch face & flips ear)

Lastly.. The FYP grp containing so many colourful individuals.. cheers to u guys.. thanks for making this sem damn fun and enjoyable and to wei neng and edwin.. thanks for letting us bully u guys.. haha.. thanks for being so tolerant ae.. haha.. to ah mai.. thank u so much for wat u have done for the grp and to henche.. U are NT FAT la.. haaha.. and lastly to my deear (spelt with double E is summer) thanks for making my day in skool! it's so much fun doing projects and irritating pple at the same time!! wahahah Love u guys loads!! see ya peeps at chalet soon!!

Our supervisor Mr Yatim = Fav Words: No problemo/ Lagi Lagi?

into the next dimension..

Welcome to MacDonalds!

Eerie.. wasnt well cut.. but oh well.. =)

2005-09-22T22:33:00.000-07:00

what the fug? i've been spammed! there will be comments comming in from no where!!

PICTURES GALORE!!!

haha.. ok.. been a llloongg time ya.. exams just ended i only gt 1 paper.. lucky me.... and it's friday! wat am i going to do for the rest of my hols?? hmmmm... need to parttyyy before going attachment.. sian.. haha.. anyway.. i'm just too bored tat i took up photoshop editing.. haha.. some may nt be v nice but, hahah.. wat the helll.. its worth the try.. below contains my FYP grp, presentation and my ah ma's birthday celebrations on Latern Festival eve.. hee.. enjoy pple!! those still having exams de.. JIA YOU!! after exams we go parrtty!! hahaha.. yeah... ok, i hope the server doesn't crash.. its going to eat up all ya bandwidth man!! hahaha

Sorry ar.. server's crazy dun allow me upload.. grrrrrhh.. will be up soon!

2005-09-10T00:16:00.000-07:00

SEE ur CB face!!

FYP presentation's finally over!! wear formal and all.. but whole body aching from NAPFA the previous day.. and YES, i faileed my NAPFA.. only 2.4 hor. .the rest all gt more than 3 lo.. hahah.. just not the cut for running.. gt some irritatin pple from napfa there too la.. dun talk bout it.. ask MA.. hahaha.. and yes, today finally marks the end of my fyp.. phew! finally! All goes well ends well la.. hahaha.. not much of cock ups during the presentations and all realy wanna thank all those who had encouraged me along the way and help me in anyway they can.. Thanks to Liling, xiao kang and adeline for encouraging me today by giving me the last boost!! thanks alot! really helped! and so.. after the presentation, my supervisors asked.. WOULD U ALL LIKE TO COME BACK TO SKOOL TO DO UR ITP?? wow! in my head.. wah.. can go plaza and not miss out in any spsd events neh.. nice!! but then.. go outside work gt experience.. but then.. if the system was successfully implemented, then we'll be like the pioneers and the whole SP library will be using our system.. but the drawback is.. they only need like 3 of us.. so.. ya.. cuz no money to pay us.. hahah.. but we all wan whole group le.. no pay bery kuku rite.. we pay skool fees and work for the library and nt get paid.. hahah.. so.. pray hard they would wan the whole grp and have pay lo~~ i wan to have more gd fortune!! hahah.. so how?? chant more daimoku for greater benefits.. ahhh... heeee...

OK, back to the caption, SEE UR CB face.. ok, this morning.. i have a graded quiz at 9am.. so.. i went to T19 the ex network lab there at the corner downstairs.. ya.. i passed it la.. then aftert the test rite.. for those who had went into the lab b4 will know its like 3 labs and outside gt tables and lots of comfy chairs.. ya.. my grp was printing stuff for fyp presentation.. then my friend S. and i was sitting outside la.. so this two guys i think is yr 1 or 2 cuz they talked something bout GEMS or something came in.. so the first guy in red talked quite loud la.. so my friend S. said v v softly to me.. wah, he talk v loud leh.. SO, APPARENTLY, that guy heard it.. and said VERY LOUDLY, VERY LOUD MEH? VERY LOUD MEH? SORRY LOR.. VERY LOUD MEH??.. wa liao.. i hear liao damn du lan lo.. then nvm leh.. his friend ar.. more worse lo.. look so fucking ugly.. curly hair.. wear spects.. mouth and nose so close together.. i noe i'm bad la.. but they dun deserve my mercy of words.. Fucking asshole.. hahahah.. TAT FRIEND said.. "SEE UR CB FACE.." wa!!.. i fucking pissed off lo.. its liek yes.. my friend said ur friend first.. but no need lo.. watch ur mouth lo.. u guy leh.. where's ur fucking manners? in the dust bin?? then my face turned really black and gt this du lan face.. so.. i asked S. eh.. u tun de xia meh?? (u can swallow wat they say ar?) then apparently, she did nt hear tat CB face line.. i super du lan.. still wan to shake the chair make the sqeeukky sound.. wa liao now say.. make my blood boil sial.. then i show my du lan face to WN.. he asked me why.. i type in msg in hp.. then i went into the lab la.. but the labs are adjacent to each other so like inside can see outside.. then i told my grp mate guys.. i hoped i said it quite loud.. WAH LIAO.. NOWADAYS GUYS ARE SO INSENSITIVE LO!!.. gt learn Charaacter Development or not?? we were just at the com next to the door.. then i told them wat happened.. E. was like.. Eh, the 2 guys outside help me take the paper from the printer leh.. WN was like say la.. this kind of pple need to say loud loud let them hear one.. hahaa.. now alil regret i nv immediately turn and shoot the 2 assholes.. hahah.. kinda irritating to meet such pple.. but i get think, NO, cannot like tat.. muz pray for their happiness.. but dun let me bump into them again, i'll diao them till the end.. hahaha.. i'm bad.. but this kids ought to be taught a freakin lesson.. i met LL in the fc she came and sat downside me.. thanks.. so sweet.. i needed tat boost.. i told her.. then she say.. haha.. tu them back la.. i see ur LJ face... hahhaha... opps.. am i supoosed to say it here?? will ruin ur reputation or not BI REN? hahah.. SUN YAN ZI!! hahahaha..

nt feeling the best of mood today.. dunno why.. no mood to talk.. kinda made gerald upset bout it cuz i dun wanna talk bout anything.. he today go camp do duty nv tell me.. tday i wear mei mei leh.. u cannot see.. i damn sad lo.. ahahahahah... but sorry la.. dunno y i feel this way.. maybe too tired or something... and peeps.. sorry for being vuglar today.. hhahaha.. jia you jia you!! it'll be ending soon!! shall we go for a mini get-away in the hols or something peeps?? heee... jia you jia you!!

2005-09-06T01:42:00.000-07:00

Thanks bro! i needed tat..

and so.. i decide to blog.. something tat my brother told me over msn.. thanks bro for pulling me up again.. really glad tat u are here for me even u are down under.. now i really see things.. the way u wanted me to.. and hope tat i will achieve more than i ever imagine.. thank u..

this is wat i chatted over the net...

i wanna watch cartoon at home the whole day!!= says:
i have this friend.. he;s like totally.. fed up with the entire world.. says tat hee had seen the whole ugly side of pple.. he nv would trust anyone.. nv treat anyone too good cuz he'll be taken adv of.. he nv wanna be humilated again... i see all these as pessemestic's views and always tell him its his karma.. i really wanna encourage him.. but he always refused to listen and find ways to counter me..i really wan him to be happy lo...
Inspiratus : It's time says:
then u dun have to talk so much, chant for him, really chant for his happiness to the extent u know he felt it, then talk to him, every single word will touch his heart that every single word will reach him
2 words, effort and sincerity
only one word in dis buddhism = XIN (heart / compassion)

it WAS LIKE.. TINNG!!
Then i was telling him bout my attachment as a young eagle in my new district and how i felt.. he said..

Inspiratus : It's time says:
ling,in every idea that u have, every plan that u conceive, always, always put the members first..
=i wanna watch cartoon at home the whole day!!= says:
like?
Inspiratus : It's time says:
like u wanna set a goal to achieve 10 new members for ur dist then make sure that u do it because u wan them to be happy not bec u wanna achieve the numbers..
Inspiratus : It's time says:
like starting and ending meetings on time
like making sure that the members enjoy the meeting
Inspiratus : It's time says:
and have something to bring home with them
Inspiratus : It's time says:
like planning throughly for the meeting so that u can do so
Inspiratus : It's time says:
like never doing things last min, so the members will not be inconvenienced
Inspiratus : It's time says:
like visiting the members at their homes
Inspiratus : It's time says:
like chanting for the members
Inspiratus : It's time says:
like always fulfilling ur promises

it was like.. baamm! blew me away! yes.. how very true.. XIN is the most impt.. nv mind how much great ideas i can come out with.. but if i do things without XIN, then nothing will be produced.. members will nt be touched at each meetins.. will nt be inspired.. will nt feel refreshed.. I shall work even harder for the sake of kosen-rufu and the happinesss of others.. to all my friends.. i really sincerely pray for all ur happiness.. esp pple in SPSD.. i noe its a difficult time for all of us.. but lets not give up lo.. what ever challenges tat we may face.. just bring it on! of cuz must have wisdom la.. hahah.. but muz be courageous!! we are the children of the lion! we are nt afraid of challenges.. rem, challenges are wat we need to grow.. Crazy club.. jia you!! An mei mei, Ling jie jie.. Cheng ge ge.. Kinda.. Xian mei mei.. Ah bian.. nie nie.. uncle hohoho..bie fang qi!! lets get thru this together!! Ru ting, ah ya.. ling mei mei..ah dai.. larry di.. jialiang.. xiao kang.. jia li..and the rest.. also mux jia you!! No body said its going to be easy.. but no matter wat.. we'll pull thru and lets really show actual prove!! Lets bring out the hai ou spirt in us.. NV give up!! Hai Ou^Gong Zhan^Chang Shen^!!

Thanks bro.. ur my inspirtation...

2005-09-05T19:02:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK

After a loooonnngg 2 weeks or so.. i'm finaally eng and hardworking enough to blog.. haiz.. FYP's finally over.. at least for awhile la.. hand in soft copy already but still gt test plan haven do finish.. sian na.. fyp is really torturous.. but fun in a way, really enjoyed this sem more than the others.. cuz can slack as much as i wan and work how hard as i wan.. Sooo many things had happened this past weeks.. haiz.. wat to blog bout?

Ok.. hmm.. ok, first i muz confess tat i haven been attending meetings regularly.. which equals to lesser benefits and gd fortune.. then I have presentation on FRIDAY..( i need all the courage, wisdom and determination to pull thru man..) which i have nt prepare for.. need to study codes and read up the documentations again.. OK, i have to say, i'm a lucky piece of shit, cuz my leader is Programming shen (programming god) and my assistant leader is PhotoF***.. oops! Photoshop master.. so in a way i need nt worry bout designing and coding.. so wat have i done in this fyp? like v redundant hor the rest of the 4 of us.. come to think of it.. we like going with the flow.. but i gt do alil weeny bit of programming and gt do lotsa documentation la.. documentations are irritating.. muz change change here change change there, here change there change everywhere change change.. change until u sian diao lo.. but of cuz its for the better la.. shit, i'm falling asleep.. gerald still dun come i will fall asleep liao la... i need to go for a jog.. hahah..NAFA on THurs.. will i make it?? Girls.. Ni zhun bei hao le ma?? ahaha.. i scare i go there 2.4 run-walk.. i go there WALK.. i cant reach my toes.. die.. i cant jump.. die.. at least i still can po shuttle run and sit up.. hahahaha... fail also get cert of participation.. hahah.. but cannot la.. muz at least get something.. but its like how long since i ran? since like poly 50? which is like errr.. January? mati la.. ahahahah.. susah liao..

Then.. i'm losing touch... with like everything.. i still lost.. but i'm still trying to keep myself happy and all.. hahah.. so thankful for having Gerald ard to accompany me and let me fa xie.. oh ya, like sat.. i was super pissed cuz i cant go to comex fair cuz my leader wan me to finish up with the compliation of the fyp.. i do until so qi geh lo.. dun until like 7 plus.. flare up at gerald for nothimg cuz he dun let me buy for him the dvd player.. hahaha show mama black face when she asked me if i wanna eat.. so i super qi geh, logged out and went out.. find gerald and his kakis for the weekly indulgence of bowling at mt faber safra... actually i wan to go there play jackpot one.. but everyone telling me to vent my anger at the bowlin pins.. so i did la.. hahah.. gerald brought his new ball and i first time gt 102 leh!i hit the 100 mark le!! hey hey.. jin bu le wo.. hahah..

ouch, i just burnt myself.. today dinner i cook one ok.. hahha.. my dad la.. sit behind nv notice the chao tar smell.. i steaming egg.. no more water le.. then the pot burnt.. so i stupid la.. put my hand in wanna take out the bowl.. BURNT.. pain! hahahah .. kuku me..

Siann na.. gerald's here. .but he dun wan to run.. cuz wanna watch wat show on channel 8.. nice meh? hahah.. guess my post is kinda lonng.. so until i gt ling gan to write bout something more serious then i post ok?? tc peeps!!

2005-08-25T19:50:00.000-07:00

Finally finished by assignment!!

Yeah.. stayed up late till 3am to complete it.. made mama angry... she stared at me.. say always sleep so late.. its like 1.30am only.. i was on my lappy.. tv was on.. lights on.. dishes undone, clothes unfolded.. she say i nv do anything... haiz.. feel bad bout it la... Some more she just go make her eye browns lo.. SUPER DARK BROWN.. even scarier.. like la bi xiao xin like tat.. hahah.. mama.. DUI BU QI AR...

ok, then yesterday very bad.. i SKIPPED class AGAIN.. haha.. v bad.. but cannot i must skip if nt the whole day i will feel uncomfortable one.. cuz will be goign out whole day.. nite time gt CIC meeting.. ya.. and y i skipped class?? cuz i went SHOPPING!! hahah.. v bad la.. but gt reason behind it one ok.. but feel v bad tat i didnt attend class la.. hopefully no warning letter will come... hahahah...

Eh.. then yesterday CIC meeting.. eeerhh... like suddenly feel so redundant there.. i nv wat i'm supposed to do.. the 3 pointers.. Faith, study, practise.. HOME VISITS.. Lay leng.. lets go leh.. looong time we nv go hv le leh.. hahahh...anyone interested to apply to be interviewed or be interviewer pls msg me ok??!! hahah.. i nv do lo.. my part as CIC.. sometimes feel quite si bai.. ya.. and also the Gohonzon conferment... ya... nv realise the importance of it until yesterday.. like wat Jic says.. to shakubuku is easy.. can just easily shakubuku 100 pple.. but wat is the importance of having Gohonzon? and wat is Gohonzon? This, i shall tell ya after i come back from Friendship meeting on Sunday on the topic "What is Gohonzon?" hahah... still gt some stuffs.. now no more poly 50 le.. muz think of wat else to do for SPSD before we leave this place.. so sad.. v fast hor.. like a blink of an eye... 3 years over le.. to the remaining yr 2s and 1.. pls really treasure ur time in SPSD.. its really a treasure tower to be uncovered and even more more things to learn from.. pls really take this as a platform to grow stronger ya!! dUn wanna regret the rest of my time in SP.. cuz i going attachment le!!.. sad... but nv the least.. treasure wat i have here and do more and more for Kosen-rufu.. haha.. hopefully i does it lo.. cuz recently feelin kinda f-up la.. so.. like stagnent again life.. too lazy to bother either.. hahah

2005-08-24T01:07:00.000-07:00

PROCASTINATING LOST FREAK...

Haiz.. how... sorry guys.. so long nv blog le.. yeah.. feeling kinda F*** up recently.. like no mood leh.. procastinator leh me.. assignment due on friday.. i only do 1/4 only lo.. no mood leh.. really no mood at all.. FYP's due in 2 weeks time.. and i'm only beginning to pick up the momentum.. my thumbscan kit haven come.. and we only gt 2 weeks.. if we dun get it.. we will just have to sorta hand in an "incomplete"-by-force FYP.. like wat the.. the kit still floating around in GERMANY lo.. and transaction is still being done.. i think by the time reach singapore already left with 1 week liao la.. unless the order DHL or FEDEX.. kena sai.. puui!

I'm so LOST LOST LOST.. confused and more frastrated! i also dunno why i feel this way.. really really.. I seem to be very concerned with the pple ard me de problems and issues.. i seem to take them quite seriously and i really pray for their happiness.. its like i just dunno how to encourage them and say the rite things!! why why why.. like i love to dialogue with them.. but.. i'm lost! where's my sense of mission? what's my purpose in life? Where's my 3 pointers i'm supposed to follow? Faith, study and practice? YWD chief said tat Buddhism is about win or lose.. i'm i losing everyday? how do i noe if i've won my day?

To be honest, yesterday's YWD's leader's meeting, i wasnt encouraged at all..ok i was late.. but i dunno.. just couldnt feel it.. i cant imagine after i pass out of SD i'll have to go back to 4D le.. deep down inside, i dun wanna go.. i wan to stay in SD.. my friends in FD are urging me to go back to FD to contribute but, i dunno leh.. SD is where i grew up.. everyone is like askin so wat u going to do after u grad?? I DUNNO!! STOP ASKING ME.. i'm lost.. wat to do.. just take each day as it comes.. try to live it to the fullest which i didnt.. Why are blogs mostly so negative de.. why? FYP, i must jia you.. Family, i also muz jia you.. i must help mama to do housework and try to be gd girl! sometimes i really wan to go home early.. but hang out with gerald.. NOT UR FAULT dear.. sometimes i also drag going home to see my papa's face.. I WANT TO spend TIME more value creating can? ANYWAY..

Dear, thanks for giving this faith a chance, i'm sure u will see the gd fortune and benefits tat will come ur way.. thanks for making the efforts to learn daimoku, gonyo and samsho everytime u come and leave my house.. I'm sure tat there'll be obstacles coming ur way, but i'm sure with resolute daimoku and faith will definately go a looong way dear.. just give it a try lo.. jia you wo..

ANYWAYS,
i feel so left out.. yeah.. maybe i'ven been proactive.. but ya.. i feel so left out..

ANYWAYSS,
XIAN MEI MEI!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!! HUGGIES!!

ANYWAYSSS,
sorry if my post so messy and jumbled up.. just my direct tots..

2005-08-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

I"M FREAKED!!!!

how how how now?? wo pa pa le!! (scared).. is it tat i haven prayed enough? is it my imagination? is it tat i haven pray well enough to lift up my life condition?? oh no.. how how how? or is it conicidence?

actually.. nt so scared leh.. like after a while feel nothing le.. not scared le.. ok.. guess wat i've been encountering.. weird weird events... ok.. so it was like on sunday.. at ard.. 12.30am.. i heard... SOMEONE CRYING OUTSIDE MY DOOR... OMG!!! for like 3 or 4 secs.. female voice.. sobbing... then first reaction.. Stun dio.. hair all stand.. then was like.. ok.. on music.. on tv!! nv hear nv hear... freaky la... hahah... kao.. somemore tat day break thru le.. chant daimoku 35 mins.. still can hear.. nt so suay ba... ok.. then was mon afternoon.. tkaing afternoon nap.. liek someone... I'm sure is nt a thing.. like bang table.. or thing drop tat kinda sound.. is tat kinda sound produced from a mouth one.. from a voice la.. then i jolt rite up la.. super awake.. then like.. nothing nothing nothing.. and i went back to sleep soundly.. haahha... so funny.. then was thinking nt so suay ba.. then at nite.. guess wat.. my mouse pad.. the touch mouse of my lappy cannot work properly.. like u wan the cursor to go up.. but cannot.. any direction la.. then was like someone pressing on the mouse pad at the same time dun let u move like tat.. if u understand wat i mean la.. then was damn pek chek.. so i was like.. ok.. dun play already ar.. then i chanted... hit the mouse pad.. and viola.. its working le.. hmmmm... then was today.. just now.. ard 1110pm like tat.. go down stairs pass blouse to my friend who stays next blk.. took the lift ma.. then.. THE LIFT STOP BTW 1ST AND 2ND FLOOR!! it sorta like jolted.. somemore is facing the walll lo!!.. was thinking no no no.. i only one in the lift.. then press button la... the lift went up to the 2nd floor.. open.. i gt out.. and then the lift... went back to 1st flooor~~.. ok.. i hope.. i hope is programming error of the lift can.. hahahah omg omg.. then went to find my friend.. chat to her till ard 1140.. then she accompany me go my lift lobby.. then have... JASMINE smell... wa kao!!!... siao... somemore the avail lift is the lift i took down.. then she told me press the lift go up.. so i waited for another lift... called gerald on the phone.. omg.. PLS gohonzon.. no more no more.. i dun wan to meet such errie stuff le... my house downstairs now gt funeral... ahhh~~ i dunno leh.. cuz my neighbour's cat always like to stand at my door way and stare at my door top corner.. ok.. SEE, HEAR.. nvm.. just dun let me see can!! pls pls pls pls pls!! everyone pls pray for me.. hahah.. hope i dun get so paranoid.. pls pls.. no no.. 5 incidents le.. no more pls~hahhahah...

2005-08-16T22:23:00.000-07:00

I've gt this piece of paper stuck on my white board in my room.. it's been there since my FD days and it's a wonder how that particular guidance fits ur suituation of that day or feeling.. how mystical... so i was reading it yesterday... its like only 1 set of guidance for monday to sunday.. so was reading yesterday's

Monday
There are no deadlocks when you have faith. Through faith you can overcome any and all problems and eternally advance towards ever more expansice horizons of hope. This is the most wonderful way to live. Hope cost nothing; it is free. Yet at the same time it is life's most valuable treasure.

Tuesday
Once you make a resolve, courage and wisdom will well forth. Even with things that one said to be impossible. You dont know whether they are until you try for yourself. No matter what others may say, it starts with you. I hope you will be people with such strong resolution.

Hope my post had encouraged u in anyway ya?!! Haiz.. feel like i'm slackin in faith le.. Need to do HR !! arghh.... muz be early for class tml!!

2005-08-14T18:10:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone.. so sorry.. so long nv blog le.. hahah... sorta no mood.. no i;m not sad or angry or anything.. just sian.. hahah

Sundays recently.. v boring leh.. cuz gerald go duty.. then eh.. no gakkai activities leh.. i;m missing out on something like tat.. ever since after ycf.. kinda like slackin in faith le.. cannot cannot cannot like tat..

Ok, this part is for gerald..
Then.. eh.. dunno leh.. gerald says he feels tat his life very messed up.. he said maybe its becuz of faith.. he said tat he cant have 2 faith at once.. and he have to choose.. dear.. i really hope tat u can pick up faith.. u have seen so many actual proofs and so many challenges and how we overcome it with daimoku.. there is no deadlocks in life.. i noe u had learnt alot with me whenever u go with me for Gakkai activites and i'm glad u have gain alot of knowledge and friends, i really hope tat this is not messing u up cuz i'm sure u will gain absolute happiness one day dear.. no matter wat ur decision is, i'll take it as it is.. jia you!!

(Yesterday)
OK, next.. i wanna let my chest out bout ugly singaporeans on buses.. so so super irritatin..
so, i was on bus 960 going towards Bugis to pass samba dress to liqi for family day performance, then when board the bus, no seats, so i stood at the middle of the bendy bus la.. the circle circle part.. ya.. then alot of pple wan to go bugis la.. so bus stop after bus stop.. b4 the expressway alot of pple le.. so this middle age lady was like.. (chinese) eh.. lai jin qu hor, jin qu ren jia yao jing lai.. then was like wa.. not bad ar.. ask the pple to move.. BUT, tat lady.. after she gt in.. cuz some of her family members are sitting down la.. then she stood there leh! the 3 seats there b4 the circle one.. ya.. with her grand kid.. nv move in.. the back so many space, the front squeeze like sardines lo.. wa liao.. then i was like staring at her.. i wanted to go up and say excuse me can u pls move in? then somemore gt kids lo.. is this wat u wan to teach the young ones? and why the youngests in front dun move in?? stare at the aunty also no use.. MOVE IN LA!! so sad leh.. pple nowadays.. so so sad... and one more thing i dun understand.. WHY MUZ ELDERS LET KIDS HAVE THE SEATS? why why.. i think elders are more fragile that the young ones lo.. why the kids with gameboys and nice clothes not let their ah mas or ah gongs take the seats?? y y y.. where's the basic courtesy gone to? sian na.. so ugly..

ok, then met liqi at bugis.. so sorry i'm so late! traffic was a killer!.. hahah.. then met gerald go walk walk.. and i totally forgt bout SYC duty! shucks.. so bad me.. ok, i shall pay back some day.. hahah.. okie.. then walk walk at bugis street brought a nice tube top.. weet!! hahah.. thanks dear.. oh ya, i saw silver too from Superstar.. quite sweet lookin la.. ang moh speaking one.. hahahah.. then went back to gerald's to get bag.. then he went westmall.. think v long wan to buy new phone or not.. hahah.. in the end.. last min b4 singtel closes, he brought X800 at $198 dirt cheap.. hope u didnt regret it.. everything also nt bad la.. just ringtone and sound v v soft leh.. hmmm.. okie.. nvm.. can la.. we'll go see if we can do something bout it k?? Help u publish new no... its 81274612

haiz.. sorry ar.. today loong post.. haiz.. now talking to my fyp grp leader.. i damn sad.. cuz i dunno if my fyp can pass or not.. nt tat we cant do it.. HE can do it.. I cant do it.. he did most of the programming part and ya la.. so like ok, yes, i didnt try hard enough.. yes.. true i did nt try hard.. i'm always late.. aiya.. programming i also sucks la.. but ya lo liek wat gerald said.. in the end muz write who did wat did wat.. die lo.. fail le.. i nv do much of programming.. nv really try, give up le.. but.. is like.. i dun wan to fail.. and fyp is suppose to learn.. i didnt lo.. ya.. i learnt how to slack even more and become more lazy.. haiz.. how.. programming he also dun wan us to do.. cuz in the end also he do one.. sian leh.. left with documentation.. only we can do documentations ar.. so si bai noe.. haiz.. hahaha.. hope it gets better.. tomlo get our thumbscan kit le.. i need wisdom....................................................................

2005-08-08T00:30:00.000-07:00

I think i'm addicted to blogging.. hahahah

WITHOUT A HOLE WHERE WOULD WE BE??

Was watching Who's line is it anyway? ITs damn power damn funny too!! hahaha.. they muz be damn clever and super reactive to react lo.. v funny there's this section they have to talk talk talk then suddenly sing a song out of the word they just said.. so wayne, (the black guy) was acting as "making a hole fairy".. so tat other guy asked, why would u wanna make holes? then wayne blurted "without a hole, where would u be??? We use it to pee .. without a hole, where would we be? We should thank our mothers oh shouldnt we!??" hahahah.. damn funny.. they are genius man..

2005-08-08T00:12:00.000-07:00

MIXTURE OF EMOTIONS...
really, this weekend really experienced XI NU AI LE...
(Took in e toilet.. look so fat! after dinner)
ok, first was yesterday SPSD graduation party... IT WAS A BLAST MAN!!.. WoooTT!! damn fun!! lotsa laughters and sometimes almost wanna lau bak sai liao la.. hahah.. anyway, GD JOB to those who prepare for this meeting!! It's a great success!! Cheng ge ge and Ling mei mei.. good match good match.. haha.. suddenly wanna sing.. (everybody wants Kung fu fighting~ HA HU HA!! ) then there was YS's TUN CHUAN!! woooott!! hahah.. mouth opener man.. hahah.. then was the dance.. damn corny the steps.. then was the video.. suddenly looking at the video makes me wanna laugh.. but my dear graduates, from the bottom of my heart, really wish u guys all the best and continue to excell in whichever area and thing u are doing.. NV NV forget the hai ou spirit ya? May it live in u forever.. HAI OU! GONG ZHAN! CHANG SHENG!! jia you!!

Then was the game, okie i'll have to admit someone very cute... haah.. opps sorry gerald!! then larry one damn farnniee lo.. "Tell a joke to make Larry laugh.." but in the end he sing song.. Larry di! sound like u singing musical leh.. hahahah.. then we ended of with 2 songs.. one i dunno one.. the other was Lang hua yi duo duo.. nice... cant image when we grad next year.. i dun wan to grad!! So, the current yr 2s muz jia you k? and my yr 3s let's really make the best out of it k?? lets make it thru together!!
Addias brand Agar agar ok!!
OK, so today is lazy sunday.. not producive at all.. so papa see liao bu shuang ma.. cuz i watch vcd on my lappy.. then he say me "wat u doing?" then i say "watch show lo.." then he went "Dun watch show.. U think u very clever meh? U think ur studies very good meh?" then say i cannot watch.. at tat immediate moment, i cried.. i was v v upset.. where gt father say this kinda thing to his child one.. I'm like already 20 and u still wan to control wat i do?? i mean i noe i slacking.. but.. can u put it in a nicer way? Then i went into the room shut the door and wept la.. keep on thinking.. "Will i be suffering so much if i wasnt in this course? If i was in the course i like all this misery couldnt have happened.. i cant be ur idea daughter.. i'm sorry.. but i'm trying.. cant u see??" haiz.. heck it man... just pull thru this whole yr.. but in a way, i dun wan my time in SPSD to end... i wan to stay on.. hahah.. but i dun wan to retain... well, I WILL NT BE DEFEATED.. sensei says : "Never be shaken, no matter wat others may say. Never be flustered, never lose confidence. This is way we should strive to live our lives. Being able to do so is a sign of geninue character.." MM!!

So, i just cant wait to leave the house at 7 for diinner by Senja- Cashew CC national day celebrations.. we go cuz we did the cargo thingy for the elderly.. The end result is nice nice.. really!! with the marker on.. its nice! ok, then waited v long for all the pple to come and our LONG AWAITED DInner.. hahah.. then dinner came.. VIP.. blah blah.. performances.. by this 2 v talented twin girls... then behind came this hokkien guy.. damn corny he... keep on ask us to clap.. then he said.. Pa ban (kill mosquito = = Clap..) eh nan, ma ji tio 4D, wu liu lai.. bo pa ban eh bo liu jea.. (Those who clap will win 4D tml gt money money.. those who nv no money get..) hahah... damn funny loo.. then after tat lucky draw..

Thursday i fell down hor, the mei an.. say nvm fall tml strike lottery.. i didnt strike lottery.. but i gt LUCKY DRAW 4TH PRIZE!!YEAH!! its a griller cum bbq set.. yeah.. next time can come my home bbq le ar.. hahahah... yeah..

2005-08-06T01:40:00.000-07:00

ok pple!! I"m up and running!! i'm back to myself le la.. just sometimes need to vent it all out la.. sorry ar.. and thanks to all those who had been supporting me and asking me bout my fall.. thanks i'm better le.. but no my butt la.. hahahhah...

OK, so i'm back in skool fa gong again with my lama goddess stints again.. hahaha.. when for pract.. late as usual.. go tutorial.. mark attendance then go off le.. then met mei an at the bench.. talk to her for awhile.. haha.. thanks for lending me some of ur time ya! haha.. then went for ELIT lecture.. Arthur poh damnnnnnnnn FARRRNIEE... teach us how to break laws and get out of it.. he rawks man.. he say when he wanted to chase after his wife tat time he book the cinema seats and make a heart shape and sit in the middle lo!! soooo sweet.. but GERALD DUN BELIEVE... hahaha.. jealous..

Then after tat go FYP.. aka.. MONKEY around time.. so gt a few pics on summer's cam..

Time for me to Fa GONG le!! See my small L and BIG L!! (my hair sux!)

ahhh!! who's tat behind!! 7th month is here!

Haha.. hardly get to see me in a pic without a funny face huh..

Awww.. LUCKY Edwinnie!! Gt a kiss for both of us.. See he so happy..

Me and my lovely Neng Neng! Muahahah.. Bully u on Monday ok? (sy voice) DUN LIE.. YOU LOVED BEING BULLIED AND TORTURED BY ME.. Muahahaha!! Slap me la!! (AP)

Made it out of boredom.. haha.. tat HU LI king is for edwin one.. cuz he come between me and neng neng!! 3rd party.. hahah.. then he cannot be called HU LI JIN.. so i call him HU LI KING lo.. haha.. then summer's head is WJ's bday party hat.. hahah..

Their nice lil hats.. see how "happy they are".. our wonderful creations.. VOLIA..

Met a few youngsters.. sec 4 to be specific.. on the bus.. see they way the girls are drunk and their loud voices and crazy laughter makes me think of what will become of these further leaders of tml.. hope they'll find the rite path soon.. haiz.. i suddenly tot of the song, COUNT ON MY SINGAPORE.. (HOW CAN COUNT ON ME S"PORE NOW?? )hahaha..

2005-08-04T22:31:00.000-07:00

ok, I'm feeling better now..... phew.... okie.. breathe in and exhale....haha.. since i;m feeling better now.. i decided to make a joke out of my fall... okie.. here goes...

Reporter: There's an earthquake reported down under at Liling's puny white asse... The earthquke measuring on the Richter scale of a Magnitude of 9! Barely are there any surviours near the epicentre.. the epicentre measuring nearing 3 cm spread over a long stretch of 7 or 8cm far and wide... Veins are damaged (pipes burst), roads are broken, fire of all sorts of colours broke out (blue black and red) around the epicentre.. buildings collapsed (my poor haemogoblins!) and people are just all over the streets looking lost and confused.. frantically looking for their loved ones...

Passer-by: Ahhhhhh!~~~~ my poooooooorrr O+ plus ar.... (hands overing face with tears)... FIND MY O+ back.. give me back my O+!!!! (apparently lots of blood cells populations are called O+..)

Reporter interrupts: Oh no! We've received news that Down down under, Liling's poor calf is also badly affected by the devastation quake! Scored of buildings had collapsed and lives have been lost! There was also reports of mass explosion of swoollen pipes.. there are still nuclear pipes damaged but yet to be exploded cuzing a huge swell in traffic and the city Down down under!! (tat explains the swell on my calf..)

5 Hours later...

Reporter: This is Reporter Poor Liling reporting LIVE rite from the epic centre of the devasting quake.. The death toll seems to be increasing by the min as more bodies are being found every min in this town.. OH MY GOD.. THE GROUND'S SHAKING AGAIN!! EVERYBODY GET DOWN!! AHHHHH!! (covers head with fear..) ((Well, aftershocks happen everytime i walk la.. cuz of the vibrations when i walk.. hah!!))..

After the after shock..

Reporter in Helicopter: As u can see.. the state of destruction is unimagable!! How long will it take for Liling's puny white asse to recover and stand up again? Till then.. RIP poor cells, blood and skin...

2005-08-04T15:50:00.000-07:00

now i'm home.. but super bu shuang...

I've found my slippers le.. lucky i take bus home.. then walk walk blk downstairs.. eh! MY SLIPPERS! then the theft v gd lo hor.. give me back 1 and half pair.. 1 more slipper missing!! then i super duper determined to find the theft lo.. i'm super sure its downstairs the kids lo.. freakking pissed... if i catch them... goign to put notice ..

I'VE REPORTED TO THE POLICE..(NT TAT I DID..) DUN U DARE TRY TO STEAL AGAIN.. TRY ME!!

Lucky i found my other missing pair on the 7th floor.. i go walk the whole blk lo.. but the slipper is outside someone's house.. like no one at home one.. so i doubt is the theft's house.. XIAO XIN DIAN... wait till i catch ya... freak~I'M SUPER DETERMINED TO PUT AN END TO THIS.. TRY ME.....

OK.. the after math of my great fall... my side calf is bruised.. slightly swollen.. my palm still hurts alil and my butt gt orh cheh.. blue black one huge line of it lo.. thanks to the steps tat kissed my freaking butt.. heh..

FREAK IS THE NEW F***...

2005-08-04T12:54:00.000-07:00

Freaking SUAY day... kao..

Now in skool.. freak! started off with heavy rain in the morning.. sooo shiok sial.. sleep until 10am obviously nt in time for skool at 1030 WLAN lesson.. one lesson only.. then when set out of house.. freak! SOMEONE STOLE MY SLIPPERS!!SUPER PISSED LO.. tat asshole stole the slippers the crazy gang gave me.. i only wear once yesterday lo.. GONE! even my cheapo $1.99 slippers also gone.. still gt liang xing rite the theft.. left me with my old slippers.. all black and lan already.. I"M GOING TO FIND OUT WITH TAT ASSHOLE IS..

Haiz reach skool join classmates for lunch.. then the worst thing tat could happen on a raining day!! YES! i FELL DOWN ON THE STAIRS... AT FC 5.. All my class guys all kena stunted lo.. FREAKIN PAIN PAIN PAIN! cannot stand up... tears in my eyes.. then freakin suay lo... wah cao................. my BUTT HURTS.. MY SIDE CALF ALIL SWOLLEN AND MY RIGHT PALM FREAKIN HURTS... PAIN! NOW BOTH HANDS GT INJURY.. LEFT THUMB CANNOT BEND.. RIGHT PALM KENA INJURY.. HOW FREAKING SUAYYYYY CAN I GET??? arghhhh... butt pain.. cannot sit for too long.. lucky i wear pants today.. sorry guys.. hahahahah... ya la.. but cargo carlerr... kena stained like shit! sian na... y soooo suay....hand pain too.. air con in lab too cold.. i wanna go home!!

2005-08-03T23:30:00.000-07:00

PISSED PISSED PISSED!! PISSED PISSED PISSED!!
I'M F**KINGLY FREAKIN PISSED!PISSED PISSED!!
PISSED PISSED PISSED!! PISSED PISSED PISSED!!
PISSED PISSED PISSED!! PISSED PISSED PISSED!!

I cant explain how pissed i am with myself.. wah liao.. these past 3 days have been TERRIBLE PLUS HORRIBLE AND SUPER VEGETABLE ar.... i'm so bloody disappointed and angry with myself lo.. My tests this few days have gone freakin wrong lo.. I DUN WAN TO BE LASST IN CLASS EVERYTIME GOT TEST.. EVERY TEST, EVERY SEM, EVERY YEAR.. i repeat.. IT SUCKS TO BE LAST.. nt tat i didnt try.. i did! i did! but apparently its not enoough.. wah liao.. wat a loser i feel i am... f*** f*** f***... ok i sound real vagular in this post.. but i dun care... let me f*** my heart out! haiz.. wei shen mo.. it is i nv chant.. last min hug Buddha's leg or i lazy.. tml get results for one of the pp.. haiz.. i dun dare to see results.. cuz i noe tat i wont do well... haiz.. then still gt pple come and tell me cannot get DISTINCTION la.. becuz of this and tat.. then like obviously.. pple here.. HELLO!! cant u freaking see??

Haizzz.. then quarrel with gerald over trival stuff again... like shit.. siansation.. Sometimes maybe u just dun understand tat even small things matters to me lo... aiya.. dun say la.. say liao i cry.. i noe u dun like me like this.. but.. aiya.. nvm la.. forget bout it.. haiz.. damn damn damn bloody low life condition now... freakkinggg pissed... argghhh!! F*** it... =(.. haiz.. MSN there "" goes again rattling bout the pp cannot get AD again.. haiz.. ya ya ya ya ya... so freaking fed up..!! My thumb freaking still HURTS.. f***

2005-08-02T00:11:00.000-07:00

ok, it's been a loooong time since i blog... nt intending to blog today... will fill u guys in tomolo!

Siansation... exams period.. super disappointing 2 days... papers did nt go well.. left with tml's pp le.. muz be in even more effort and muz have right ichinen and wisdom!! i need it badly..!!! haiz.... no more disappointments tomolo!! till tml, ciao~~

2005-07-29T00:27:00.000-07:00

I had this funny encounter on the bus on the way to gerald's house for a delicious dinner...

I boarded bus 963 then sat behind la tat kinda 2 empty seats.. then, this secondary skool kid from the last row came and sat next to me.. i was like.. wat the.. then i bioh him la.. then damn funny.. he went like, hello, wo de peng you xiang ren shi ni ke yi ma.. quite cute leh he.. then i wanted to say "eh, u got above 16 or not?" but i didnt la.. then i just smiled and shooked my head.. damn funny lo.. maybe i look like a secondary skool kid.. hahahhah.. oops.. was wearing orientation tee and board shorts.. wear slipper and spects.. look so geeeky lo.. wah liao.. bo taste leh.. i wanted to laugh..

so is this wat young kids are doing nowadays? prowning on pple on the bus? sibei bo liao leh.. best part is.. Ah bengs are still alive? appearently, the peng you who wanted to know me turns out to be.. Short, skinny, WHITE and centre parting lo.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. lucky i alight 2 stops later.. if nt i wouldnt have noe wat the peng you look like.. Haiz... kids nowadays.. i was really thinking of changing my mind of not talking to them leh.. i should have said yes and make a fool out of them or council them to walk the rite path.. hahaha..

well.. too bad.. heh.. then alighted at the stop waited for gerald at the bus stop.. then there was students from the nearby sec skool la.. YISS.. if u noe wat it means.. ya.. i was thinking nt to be racist.. since my time in sec skool .. which is NOT LONG AGO.. the students of today haven changed abit huh.. mats and minahs still exist.. so does ah bengs and lians.. then there was this bunch of minahs at the bus stop shouting.. charlie!! charlie!! at the opp bunch of chinese guys.. then they shouting charlie and the chocolate factory.. i mean its ok.. i just dun like the way they talk.. so minaish.. eeeewww.. ok.. i'm bias agaist such kids.. i STARED at them.. but, like they care.. heh.. haiz.. kids nowadays...

2005-07-28T00:08:00.000-07:00

I'M SO BADDDDDDD!!!
i'M so evil.. i'm so bad.. i just pulled mama's hair.. i cant' help it.. it was a moment of impluse.. shit.. bad bad bad bad.. cuz mama doing a dipolma course ma, then need to do alot of computer stuff.. then she alil slow with all the Ctrl+A, copy paste and all.. then stupid me la.. no patience... i cannot teach one... then i go pull her hair.. quite hard leh.. but not v la.. then hor, she not angry leh.. she still give me a sheepish smile.. wah, i see liao.. feel even more bad lo.. MAMA DUI BU QI!! i nv say sorry.. haiz.. how can.. how can... cannot.. muz be more disclipned and have more patience.. muz start studying more liao... friday liao!! 1 more day!! how how.. panick panick.. cannot.. muz have rite ichinen..!! muz wake up early tml... haiz....

yeah! jun yang, derrick and kelly gt thru.. jia you!!!

2005-07-25T23:38:00.000-07:00

The crazy club.. tot its time to introduced to everyone in case u dunno.. hahha... (from bottom left: ME! Crazy Neo, Crazy Tan, Crazy Lau, Crazy Lee, our 2 beloved SPSD CICs Adeline and Jeannie, Crazy Chan, Ah Bian, Ting Wee.. Ai Zai Mai Luan and Cheng ge ge)

Today.. nothing much.. went to skool.. reach late at 10 plus then open lab door.. eh! no pple! then call summer.. say gt briefing.. i dunno lo.. no one tell me and everyone is expecting jq to contact me.. PUI! ITP briefing la.. dunno wat to choose leh.. hmmm.. not much of choices anyway.. haiz.. wat to choose??

Then after skool watched 'The Island'.. nt bad leh.. worth the money.. went home.. bla bla.. boring day..

The population of the "Pimple" pple seems to be invading my face fast.. oh shucks.. i look like a freak.. hopefully it'll get well soon.. DIE pimples DIE!!

me and my GAY partner.. muaks!! deng ni wo...

2005-07-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

2nd post of the day...

GERALD MADE ME ANGRY

ok, fine, i kinda admit i'm kinda a petty person la.. haha.. gt angry over small stuff.. I'm sorry ya? I'm v sensitive.. i'm miss sensitive skin.. wahahaha.. i dun mind other pple say me.. but u cannot say me.. i can make fun of u but u cannot make fun of me.. whaahah.. v bad hor.. hope he forgets bout this blog.. if ya reading... HELLO!!... kai wan siao er yi ma.. hehe...

Today.. sunday BLUES woke up at 12pm! my dad's so gonna kill me.. haiz... oh, did i mention my dad hate it when i wake up late on weekends.. always wan me to wake up early to do something productive... haiz.. so ke lian rite.. but also for my own gd la... then after tat.. wake up liao.. slack abit.. gerald go clean our baby's shit.. aka.. rabbits.. cookie and fudgie..phew, stinks.. haiz.. cookie's fur something wronng leh how.. one patch one patch.. then he last week shed like hell.. v jiat lat lo.. then he nt as playful as last time liao.. muz bring him go see doc le.. tat means .. no more $$$$$ very luong ar...

Then went to gerald's place, take jsp book.. had dinner with his family.. his parents always v nice one.. v simple minded pple.. gerald like king like tat one to order wat order lo.. we ate zi cha.. nice nice.. but can see tat his parents love him alot.. v envious.. nt tat mine dun.. just tat they dun really show it.. mmm.. then reach home 1050.. on the way home in the bus tat time.. phone rang.. HOME.. immediately, SIANnnnnn na.. my dad.. which is quite rare and normally means DIE.. come home ask me bout test next week.. == hint hint.. which means tat tml onwards cannot go home late liao.. muz be guai kia.. must study... must ting hua.. must help mama do housework.. must help mama do homework.. hahah.. oops! tml new week.. must jia you!! everyone else reading this.. also muz jia you k??!!

2005-07-24T23:54:00.000-07:00

Sunday blues... damn tired from yesterday's PaRtY...

Yesterday started off with SD meeting at TBSC.. its was a blast! All the 3 SD HQ items came together and performed their item.. After a vigorous gongyo and daimoku, we all started with item cheers.. HQ 1's is japanese tap dance ma, so their cheer got wat gambatte and Bansai! (victory) one.. after tat was.. HQ3.. palm palm palm.. finger finger finger.. damn looooooonnnngggg cheer... BUT HQ2 is a blast man! We started off with our favourite.. everybody now.. with the count of 3.. 1, 2,3!! HQ 2 cheer!! followed by our samba cheer.. Ah nan ge so happy.. smiling from ear to ear sial.. hahah.. nv before we cheer the HQ2 cheer so loud and power leh.. siao siao.. haha.. then after that was testimonial by this guy from ITE also from Samba item.. read from a script one.. hhaha.. but towards the end... feel like lau ba sai when he say tat he really hope that his friends will change for the better and become happy too..

To start off HQ3 presented their dance item.. Bollywood (with indian accent).. then was HQ1 japanese tap dance.. then saved for the best for last is HQ2 la.. Ahhhhh.. Samba!! We rock the house down yo~! Guess it was a really cool meeting like wat Mr Yip said..

Then after the meeting ended, nienie, ma!, gerald, Leng jie jie and victory rushed down to watch ndp.. was really a v hectic journey cuz gt road block then we late then gerald v pek cek cuz sameul waiting for us.. then cannot meet sameul cuz the officials dun let him cross he muz walk one BIIIIG round to meet us.. then we mux run one BIGGG round to meet him.. wah seh.. damn pissed.. I DUN LIKE PADANG.. for those who are going the next one.. remember.. DO NOT MEET AT WRONG PLACE.. GO TO THE RESPECTIVE GATES!! haha.. nv the least, we manage to sit in b4 the parade starts.. cuz gerald and meul meul wan to see patrick march in la.. tat's hw we gt our tixs.. Thank u pat! then we so far from patrick tat side.. he standing behind the colour flag one lo.. gt.. i saw him on screen.. his face was covered by the flag diagonal to him cuz of the camera angle.. too bad! haha..

By then we 3, nienie, ma nad me already HIIIIIIIIIGGGHHH until duunno wat liao lo.. we even more ON than the motivators swinging the flags like nv eat dinner like tat.. we did all sorts of stupid actions with the fun pack provided.. haha.. but overall, the show was gd.. it was more of a visual feast la.. v gd lightings and visual.. gt all the floating cars or wat u call tat.. fireworks was nice.. just nice at our angle.. Oh, nt forgetting Soka's item.. They did well~~!! v gd alignment and cordination! keep it up!!

After the show.. we went to LJS to makan... after which go play bowling with gerald and co at mount faber safraa.. reach home already 145 le.. then papa sleeping on sofa in living room.. ok la.. i feel bad returning home sooo late.. but i called just tat no one picked up.. haiz.. even dreamt of being scolded in dream for coming home late.. haiz.. no gd no gd.. next time muz be gd daugther!!

2005-07-23T00:56:00.000-07:00

feelin: (thinking mode... sad)

Finally! my first offical blog.. cant believe i'm doing this...

Well, guess i was too tempted by the crazy club pple.. reading blogs are so much fun! and sharing all the wonderful moments make me wanna share mine too.. =) It was kinda a pain for me to go thru the registration process for a blog.. cant think of a name.. but.. mei an say nt original my first inital name.. so i tot of Lama goddess lo.. wat my classmates call me.. but nv the least, i bring joy and entertainment to them k! hahah..

Nothing much to blog for now.. but i figured tat i'll need something to ease my boredom for fyp and all.. so i can blog all my other shit as well.. let's hope this blog will turn out well.. my first blog ended without a good bye.. i forgot the URL even.. grasp~.. well.. wth.. hee..